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Author of . . 

"TIS-SA-ACK 

A 

TALE . . 
OF . . 
YO-SEMITE 
VALLEY . 



"IT'S . 
ALL . 
IN . . 
THE . 
HEART, 
YOU . 
KNOW; 
OR, . 

THE . 
FORTUNE 
TELLER'S 
DREAM," i:i 





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Are there Chords 



In the Harps of Humanity ? 



BY 



STELLA STANDISH, 






AUTHOR OF "TIS-SA-ACK," "IT'S ALL IN THE HEART, YOU 
KNOW; or, THE FORTUNE TELLER'S DREAM." 






NEW YORK, 
THE NASSAU PRESS, 162-166 LEONARD STREET, 



.61*' 



DEDICATION. 



THIS BOOK 

IS CORDIALLY INSCRIBED TO THOSE WHO SACREDLY AFFIRM 

TO THE 

SILENT SOUND OF THE VOICELESS VOICE 

OF THE * 

KEY-NOTE OF THE TITLE. 



Copyrighted by Author. 
All rights reserved. 



A NOTE. 



The manner in which the manuscript for this book 
came into my possession is revealed in its pages; there- 
fore, I have only to add, that in New York City, early 
one morning, the bell to my rooms rang. — I opened the 
door. The tall and graceful Bona Dea, who — like a 
haunting thought — had followed me, spiritfully stepped 
in; hastily saying: — "I am to depart within an hour 
for Chicago, and shall soon go still farther north-west- 
I feel that my time for gaining educational experience 
by traveling, is limited; and think that within a year, or 
two, I shall be settled in a home and continue my ideal 
life." For, said she, extending her arms horizontally 
right and left: — "We have but to extend our arms and 
a cross is formed, in the centre of which is borne by each 
of us our part of the great Universal Plan of the Evolu- 
tion of the Universe, upon which is the rock of the 
ages — Love! — and developed only when the arms can 
fall to entwine and enshrine it in a home! — " 

From Wynona, Minnesota, a few days ago I received 
from her by express, a package containing a small red- 
wood box in which were a pair of passementeried satin 
slippers that evidently had been worn: — in one of these 
I found a note instructing that I place all his letters in 
the right and all hers in the left slipper. In the right 
slipper I put one small, thin, unopened letter; which I 
doubt that she ever saw, as I packed the slippers in the 



TV. 

orange flowers which came in the redwood box; these 
last two I knew she must have obtained from California. 
I sent them immediately to her; since then I have not 
known her address and can only hope I may one day 
have the pleasure, yes — an esteemed privilege — of 
visiting her in her home. 

Stella Standish. 



Among the numerous persons whom I had permitted 
to read the manuscript of this book, are many who have 
since written expressing a desire to more fully compre- 
hend some of the ideas merely hinted, and asking that I 
kindly explain. Although I have in each instance an- 
swered as best my knowledge permitted, I here extend 
to them my pleasure of their interest. More especial is 
my appreciation, as inquiries were largely from young 
gentleman and young ladies. S. S. 



ARE THERE CHORDS IN THE HARPS 
OF HUMANITY ? 




"Just when I seemed about to learn, 

Where is the thread now? Off again! 

The old trick! Only I discern 
Infinite passion, and the pain 

Of finite hearts that yearn." 



ARE THERE CHORDS IN THE HARPS 
OF HUMANITY? 



"In a kingdom of halcyon breath, — 
I gaze on the marvel of love — " 



It was during a tour through the San Joaquin Valley 
California, that, at the residence of a mutual friend, an 
Attorney-at-Law from a near northern town, — who was 
taking a vacational trip which extended to San Diego — 
California — was introduced to me. 

Being a literary critic, he presented me with a criti- 
cism upon my unpublished story and requested that it 
remain unread until after my departure. 

Later, finding the criticism complimentary, a corre- 
spondence as follows ensued. 



Calif. Nov. 24, '91 
Mr. 

Dear Sir: 

I have been for some days thinking to thank 
you for your concise criticism upon my literary effort: — 
that you should know I am pleased — is just. 

It is a feeling of gratitude prompts expression, as also 
the pleasing sketch of your life, and your aspiration to 
higher growth. 



That I should stand in presence of one who so ap- 
proaches an ideal God — pardon me — was a revelation. 

Keats says — I quote inquiringly: — "Where is the face 
that one would always see?" — It must be little less than 
that of a God's! 

Often, far adrift from else, shall I dream of that home 
of the Gods beneath fair southern skies, and as the heart 
quickens when new love's born — so do we love to be 
taught its glory. 

But the willing pen aside must lie erst acceptance 
tire. 

Respectfully, 



Calif. Nov. 29th, '94. 

My Dear Miss. 

Your kind letters of some days since, received. Your 
thanks for favors, shown you while at our friends, are 
very kindly received. Permit me to disclaim the need 
of any praise for doing what any true gentleman 
must do. 

You know I always found you very pleasant and was 
very happy while in your company. I was sorry you 
departed so soon, as now it seems more lonesome; as 
you know, is always the case after pleasant association, 
but the sweets of life always have their sorrows; those 
sorrows can be made less intense by memory of past 
kindnesses, and a hope of future rememberance. 

Please do not think me perfect. Perfection is no 
plant that grows on soil mortal, but an attribute of the 
Gods. But pardon me, I could not chide a friend so 
kind and destroy memories true and dear. 

Life is as we make it, real, earnest, true and noble, or 
following the extremes that seem to please us well, but 



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lead to the slope where sits the shadow, feared of man, 
we are unhappy, undone. Nature has a true smile for 
all. Giving it heed, we are guided to a noble realiza- 
tion of the purpose in man and the harmonies in human 
nature. Are there chords in the harps of humanity? 
Are there harmonies to be guided, protected,and revered? 
Perhaps, listless, we pass them by; perhaps unnoticed, 
or unfelt, they fall. They have gone — not to the 
Lesbian shores. 

Often have I been lost in revery beneath a southern 
sky. The moonlight, playing on the silvery lake and 
river; the hills and valley clothed in garments of white; 
the plain vanishing until its distinctness is lost in the 
beauties of a silvery horizon, make me admire and love 
the home beneath the southern stars, and somtimes, 
almost chide nature for being more kind to some lati- 
tudes than others. 

But you will tire of my idle dream, so I will wish you 
success and happiness, and if agreeable will be pleased 
to hear from you again. 

Very Respectfully, 



Villa del Dec. 9th, 1891. 

Mr. 

Dear Sir: 

Your very welcome letter was received in due 
time. Yet business sometimes, pleasure sometimes, and 
sometimes reflection delays the wished return of thought. 
And you would be pleased to hear from me again? 
Well— you shall. An inexpensive gift it is, yet little 
very little have I to tell. Not of Ancestral Halls and 
Fair Divinities can I write; and if there be in modern 



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days a queen to reign, she whose self and consciousness 
knows best of God, wears richest crown. 

A volume, many volumes are in the thought, and 
when we cease to think — but know, though long the 
way, our doom's no worse than first to be a God and then 
—be God. Ah, Glorious Morning, is all there is of life! 
One long and beautiful dawning. Deep rugged ways 
do but enrich the ever opening pathway; the leaves are 
turned, new interestedness leads the happy wanderers on. 
O, who can mourn when life is all so grand. True, we 
must feel pity, deeply wrung from the fount of love 
within when the common life is viewed. I say common 
life, I know I am much alone. We feel oftentimes as 
though a language strange — incomprehensible to most — 
is ours. Environed by these barriers, we break away, 
to Gods and self. 

O, do not speak of Idle Dreams — there are none such; 
they are the clefts on the hillsides wherein we may 
refresh our weary souls. Weariness needs not know un- 
happiness, ofttimes are we not most happy when wearied 
most? Yet toil brings soon its rich reward. And life 
is not without, within, the rather. The falling stone 
seeks not the vibrating wave, but with accumulated 
speed inertly finds its resting place while its uncon- 
sciously cast powers the greater souls admire, uncon- 
sciously its consciousness goes on and so we move; did 
you feel that I passed you, or I that you were near, 
thus, consciousness is more akin, and so the whole world 
moves. Correspondences are felt, really nothing is in- 
animate. And so the niceties, the purities, the levers 
which did hold them up, careless we let them fall, be- 
cause, that now we have become new ones again we 
need, less rugged, far more subtle; and so old habits go 
until if, upon the ashes of the past we look, we might 
abhor, nor need we even cast a retrospective glance, say, 
this is done, is gone, is past, and we are 'Passing on'; 



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and now, to-day, what shall we cast aside. Only say it 
shall be done, one evil habit gone, one unkind thought 
never to be harbored more, the drunkards cup, the pro- 
fane word, untidy habit, anything that we may nearer 
become a God; and so the dusty house, the outer self, if 
tidy kept will live its added days. 

O, will you pardon me? My wayward pen is wild 
again. How good it is for me that I must need meet 
the people of my day or in my well loved solitude I 
would deem the world even now a heaven. 

Here the grand, gorgeous, lingering and far away 
sunsets. At Merced the rainbow out from under which 
the cars seemed to glide when leaving that beautiful 
city. And that which fav orably impresses one, in the 
gentle, sturdy, industry of the City of the Stanislaus — 
Modesto. 

A something which I knew must be a lifelong memory- 
pleasure, filled my heart when leaving our friend's resi- 
dence. At Vallejo the charmingly playful, boldly brilliant 
sunsets that seemed to frolic at one's feet, that we might 
almost gather up like lilies of the field, Vallejo Bay, 
that watery garden blossoms like the Night Blooming 
Ceres,or the earlierFour o'clock ; a city of Artists-at-Home 
and Beautiful Sunsets! All these, something every-where 
to fill to overflowing the heart, the soul with love. Can 
Gods be better blest! Then we must have food and 
raiment. The lilies of the field toil not, but their monadic 
life gathers in, as there is no indivisibility of matter, 
that spirit incomprehensible infinitessimal — that small 
spark is sufficient for the. lily, and ours the same, of 
greater growth, can we not trust its power and lean 
upon the oar! O that word gentleness, tenderness, "A 
soul to be known and loved because it is known." One 
who can plead for Truth because that one is Truth. 

I have wandered out into the world again! To pity, 
— to pity and not have pity's presence felt, this is noble 



—12— 

but it is a study, yet when that subtle powers goes forth, 
which lifts the pitied up, wakes deadened consciousness 
to pride, then it is pity pure, which grows the plant, 
perfection. 

The foregoing pages were written under difficulties 
rather; but if you deem them interesting and their writer 
worthy a remembrance of the kind, I am sure it will add 
to the brightness of her pathway. 

Respectfully. 



Christmas, — O joyous day! My soul — why sad? And 

am I ill? 
Yes ill! Has death passed near? I feel it so — so lonely. 
The cold white Fig-trees how chill, how still! Yet 

this is 
Christmass, gay! But why this mazy mist of distant 

hope? 
Come night! Come morn! 



Villa del Dec. 26th, 1891. 



My Dear Mr. 



Since last I wrote you there has occured some- 
thing, which — although Merry, Laughing Christmas 
was so near, and ambitious New Year impatiently 
awaited not a fortnight off — brought a current of sad- 
ness to this Villa home. 

You have not written, yet I feel I must tell you of a 
loss. The first of the week we read a notice of the 
death of Hon. J. M. R.— of M. His was the first publish- 
ed criticism upon my story. Mrs. S. of M. wrote that he 
was ill. My friend and 1 were so grieved that I wrote 
at once expressing my sympathy, also my regrets at 



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having seen him so little while there; and said that if I 
ever had a home where I could entertain him, I wished 
him to come and spend a whole month in visit. 

That he so soon passed from earthsome shadows to 
true reposing life! His going I feel is loss to me. I 
admired, and more, I felt the purity of a High Over 
Soul, when in his presence; — sixty-three fleeting years 
were his, but their traces gleamed with keenfelt beauty. 
I am sad that no more will that kind sympathetic voice 
gladden my way. Gone, gone! I wanted to say to 
someone, I am sad, selfishly sad, and so I turned to you; 
— excuse me — I have few correspondents, almost none, 
you are so near a stranger, yet I trust you will pardon. 
There are so few persons whom I think do understand 
that the pure and true in heart dare be a little less 
formal because of that broad growth. I presume you 
have passed here on your journey farther South. 
Yesterday, Christmas, I thought so much about my lost 

friend, and you — that I said I will write. Villa del 

is rude, rough yet, but I almost regret I had not asked 
you to call upon us here, yet I feared you would not 
care to call. 

In less than a week I bid goodbye to this Villa. "It 
may be for years — it may be forever!" Next year's 
roses will bloom — not for me, the Hollyhocks will 
smile to other appreciation, every growth that has un- 
folded its secrets to me alone, will keep them now. 
Everything says-goodbye, so kindly--so sweetly. Truly 
you say— "Nature has a true smile for all." She has 
indeed for me. It takes time to make her acquaintance* 
and lingers ever her deep impressions. 

No doubt your Christmas was cheery and joyous, and 
may your New Year develop your highest, brightest 
hopes unmarred by the lonely word — Gone! 

As you have not written, I presume this is another 



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goodbye — which makes me almost wish, if so, — you had 
not been so kind. 

Despite my theory, with falling leaves and dying 
year, the mercury of my cheerfulness is fallen low. It 
will rise again with budding Spring — I trust. 

Goodbye, 

Very cordially, 



Calif. Jan. 2d, '92. 

To Miss. . . 

My Kind Friend: After my pleasant vacation, I 
am once more at home, and ready for the remainder of 
my year's work. I feel quite equal to the task now, but 
fear I will become very weary before my summer vaca- 
tion. When I left you at the train at L — , I was not 
sure but I would be ill for some days. Forbodings have 
not proven true — and you may believe me I am glad — 
I am not sorry. I have had but little rest since, as 
there are several of my former fellow students with me 
and you know we must be happy while the opportunity 
presents itself. 

Opportunities are golden to those who seldom meet 
and join in telling the stories of student days, reviewing 
the past that never comes again. We have walked to- 
gether to our class with a goodly conscience, friends 
now that are scattered like leaves o'er the forest. 

Well we are happy, but the days that are past are 
gone and the duty of the present is our aim. 

I wish I could have gone to the City for a short time, 
as I know I would have enjoyed my visit there, and no 
doubt would have been better prepared for, and happier 
in my work. 



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I suppose you have completed your work and will 
soon leave the city. I know you will be happy, even if 
you leave your old home. Contentment is the word 
that expresses complete happiness. 

If the aim in life is complete living, why should we 
not realize the full meaning of the word — (contentment.) 

For fear this will not find you in the City, I will make 
it brief. 

From your friend 



Someway this letter did not satisfy me, and these 
thoughts forced themselves upon me: — 

'Tis vain to plead where love's a coward, 
Poor hope will bleed and soon lie dead; — 

Thy love, too, soon by dispair dowered 

Lies 'neath Earth's cold, chill blasts shrouded. 

Lone Soul, — hast thou no Duplicate: — 

Lone Love, — turn thou to Self and Gods. — 

Lone Hope, Die! 'tis but human fate; — 
And Truth. Thy staff. The else — what odds. 

Yet I answered. 

San Francisco, Jan. 4, '92. 

My Dear Mr. 

Your letter received. I thank you very, very much 
that you are so kind as to let me hear from you to-night. 
I waited Saturday to see if there would be a letter, I 
was so anxious. I then went to the Mechanics Ex- 
change and found in the , of Thursday, that which 

led me to think you were not ill. To night I rejoiced 
at the superscription, but when I opened it and you 
were really well. — so many times I have said — O Gods 



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preserve him! — And so they have. I will not arrogate 
to myself any credit, that I prayed them to — it is 
enough, they have! 

So many of my friends the Gods have taken. "And, 
O, the difference to me." O if some appreciative person 
would let me sometimes put my head upon their shoul- 
ders and weep my loneliness, away. O some Avatar be 
guard and guide for me! O for a soul that can plead 
for Truth because that soul is Truth! The leaves, the 
trees, the birds, the mountains know — and the rivers to 
the ocean run to say they know my soul. 

When I saw you, heard your low, sweet, tender voice, 
saw what depth of soul you have, saw so much of my 
own soul's fancy builded structure that for years I have 
longed to see — was it strange I listened, was it strange 
I drank almost life giving nectar when you spoke? Was 
it strange I stayed one evening more at our friends 
because you were there? Was it strange I framed an 
excuse and wrote you the first letter? Was it strange 
I did not answer your first letter for many days because 
I would then look and hope for your second; and I did 
not know that my ill health could keep me up if I 
should be dissappointed: — And I only must guess — and 
maybe wrongly — that there was not some lady, some- 
where, to whom you perhaps owed your letters and 
your time. I grasped at the straws which you cast 
afloat and thought they meant you wished to become 
better acquainted, and then the sunshine darkened when 
I knew I would never see my lost friend to whom I 
intended to tell all my soul's sadness. Christmas came, 
I said: he— you, will not let Christmas pass without 
writing a merry word to me! I could not enjoy a Merry 
Christmas thought, nor taste of Christmas dainties. I 
went to the Theatre to induce a person to go who had 
never seen a star actress. — I worked to drown the lone- 
liness. The day after Christmas — sick— I wrote you 



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the letter, third to your one. I could not help it — 
pardon me, pardon me, and that morning when we met 
at the train, you returning to your home, and I to San 
Francisco, without any letter yet from you, I was to pass 
our friends, I hardly thought you were there; but I was 
to pass there, to leave you forever it seemed. When you 
stepped off the cars I was in the waiting-room looking 
over Shirly — thus endeavoring to withdraw from re- 
membrance; then I met you. I felt the blood rush to 
my cheeks. It seemed the world was filled with rain- 
bows! — You said: — "Have you been well?" and your 
tender gentle voice so kind, I will hear that till I die: 
— "Have you been well? — I could not say no, when 
such music met my ears — I must have been well — I must 
have been dreaming. Life was changed. I was aba- 
shed that I could not have been stronger — mentally and 
physically. I thought the Gods sent you to me — and 
you would write to me! I was so sorry I had written 
two letters without one from you, for now, you said 
you would write me! I thought maybe I could still hide 
my over anxiety to have you become a dear friend — 
by asking you to not read my third letter which you 
would find when you reached home, but toss in the fire: 
and then someway I was cast within myself and could 
scarcely speak after that. 



San Francisco, Jan. G, '92. 
My Dear Mr. 

As my birthday is nearing, I shall try to finish the 
work of my past year. Work is, and always has been 
my destiny. I can ill afford to be ill. I hoped to be 
able to read in public this year, but you know one must 
be strong enough to have magnetic hold upon the audi- 



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ence. Now I will speak of the pencilated letter, al- 
though my friend wrote that, it was mine, give me the 
credit; I was and am yet proud of it. I am proud of 
myself that I can think and can care so much for any 
person as to not always observe the niceties of society's 
painful rules. One dizzy minute on the cars that day, 
and the pleasure almost divine of meeting you would 
have passed, but I said no, not to me shall it pass; and 
it was a supremely happy hour, it lengthened and 
evolved. I lived a little lifetime in that short space. 
The clouds and sunshine alternating, the world's bright 
rainbows dispersed, but finally settled in reality — in 
visionary clearness to each of us, low — near the earth. 
I said this is emblematical, if ourselves were more 
divine, less earthly, that rainbow's beautiful arch would 
not be obscured. I tried to waken you; — you were 
drowned in thought. I am a poor conversationist per- 
haps because I have lived alone so very much. I speak 
too much with the time of my pen. Too slowly for the 
quick heart's rush and cheek's warm flush. You might 
have been in thought of other days, other friends, I 
ceased to intrude — and builded fairy castles in fairy 
vales, with conserved Holy Ghost flowers. Your pale 
face as one, and as the dove I nestled there, happy. 
Stony, sad, yet living intensely were you. I thought it 
mental pain you suffered. It might have been, it might 
have been for love, far, far away in some God-land — 
my sense was too obtuse to tell. 

I believe yet it was mental suffering — But I rejoiced, 
for one who can feel intensely — lives well! Lives more 
than of the earth — has much of heaven within. Yours 
is a grand — noble soul; from which I may be at distance 
held; or — be its communicative friend — as you will — I 
ever shall worship at its shrine. You have affected me 
strangely. I have been made ill by the power, better 
by the higher worship. Now I think I am thousands 



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better prepared to rejoice as time flashes by from the 
ever rolling Forever. 

That day's ride, the cold atmosphere at the wharf, 
the time of night, and all combined to effect my eyes, 
so that night I could not use them to write to you. 
Mental suffering with your ill health, as you said: — 
"Someway I have not been well!" — might prostrate you; 
you had said mortality was great where you had been 
— and I was so fearful you would be very sick — would 
die. Could I respect my own soul if I had not written 
to ask of your health? 

My friend remonstrated, said she could not write; but, 
I said she she must; my stationery was in my valise at 
the station — on an old Social Invitation I found an en- 
velope, took part of a leaf from my book, in which you 
wrote your name, wakened my landlady to procure a 
stamp, and almost stamped my foot to have my friend 
write — she was so nervous and tired — I took it proudly 
and went to the Post Box, while she insisted — do not 
send it; — but I was proud and happy that I could feel 
such soul sympathy for soul as to obscure the common 
question of propriety. Yes! and too often a deceitful 
propriety. 

I have a friend who some years ago wrote me a letter 
upon over gratitude; he is a physician, he said in one 
instance, an old sciatical rheumatic maiden — lady — 
whom he cured gratuitously — was so very grateful she 
seemed never to cease trying to exhibit that trait, and 
she would have been glad to have had him become a 
widower, that she — to still show gratitude — might have 
saddled herself upon him for life. 

Well, like the material world all things should have 
balance, so, maybe, I have exhibited undue gratitude to 
you; — but I have exhibited myself as I am, not as I am 
not, which is always best. It is not the question with 
me — dare I do this or that, and what will someone think 



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— but, is my best self doing this or that, and does it make 
me unselfishly happy. In your last you spoke of your 
friends, mates of former years, like leaves — numerous — 
you have them. O this is much, much to make you 
happy. Your proud and noble bearing with them, your 
determination to have a record of life near to perfection 
for I see you handle that record as the Gods do handle 
souls — this should give you supreme happiness. In 
your vacations you can read out and away from the 
straightened lines of common educational narrowness 
into the broad realms of the true life and there find the 
climax of all happiness, intermingling, in the airy gaieties 
of the passing breezes; the time of your next vacation 
will soon be the present, only a few months in the 
Span — and you will live them well, they are yours but once 
— and you will never say them lost. The many advancing 
experiences in your profession, your clients — unconscious 
that there are no accidents in life, that each follows the 
the thread of his or her own weaving — will be studies 
pleasing; — and the vast influence sent forth during this 
span of time is too elevating but be a source of happi- 
ness. 

As is natural I see more to make your future out- 
wardly happy than is apparently in mine. I rejoice at 
this; I would not have another as I, nor is it so, each has 
his or her own accumulations; we are but the sum of 
our experiences. From the sum of our experiences we 
have but one remainder, manipulate it as we will. Our 
character is all, is all, is what we are, our character — 
the sum of our experiences! This robes our soul, is all 
its dressing, is all our happiness, is our eternities' best 
self. Our letters to and from our friends — siftings 
many times from the sweets of life, bouquets of mem- 
ory's language, soul photographs. Ah! — O yes, you 
will be happy! Of my happiness — by contrast I have 
no fellow-students. It was not for me to acquire an 



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education with that pleasure. I am a wild flower of the 
world, gathering but from the breezes, showers, sun- 
shines and storms; perhaps, much overbalanced by 
storms, which gives strength. Frail physically! — On the 
succulent and tender stem hangs the beautiful and deli- 
cate lady-slipper ; and beneath the umbrella drooped 
May-apple's top lies that which can restore to health or 
change to death's level the human form. Who can tell 
where and how much of psychic strength in anything is 
held ? Psychic power to me is growth of soul, grown 
carefully and slowly, which makes the spirit of all things 
visible; it may dissolve the scientists' philosophy to 
know from whence, and where, and unto what, and why, 
to see whence all things end, to watch the great evolv- 
ing action in the thunder's home, in silent night and 
bursting morn, is happiness. To see the engine's plunge 
from the fearful pier and be happy; deduce therefrom 
the ethical esoteric lesson adduced, is sweet erudition, 
this gemmation, this budding forth of deeper vision 
calms first and most my spirit always. My religion is 
settled, in that I have perfect contentment and happi- 
ness. My queer trip was a great source of study and 
productiveness. I know the world better and think it 
better than before. Do not weary with your work, it 
has its fair remuneration — a happy factor. 

This is Friday, the eighth — my birthday. I have a 
kind of reverential regard for birthdays — tell me when 
yours occurs. 

Trusting this little novellette will find you well and 
happy, I am the same always. 

Your friend. 



The two letters, dated January 4-G, were mailed in 
one envelope January 8th. As I had retained a copy of 
my third letter, fearing he might surmise its contents 



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wrongly, and as I had that day on the cars, requested 
him to toss it in the fire, I again mailed him that, upon 
the evening of the seventh. 

, Calif., Jan. 9, 1892. 

My Dear Miss 

You are very kind to pay me such flattering com- 
pliments; I know I am not worthy of them. I appre- 
ciate your earnestness and frankness, because I seldom . 
meet friends who are willing to lay aside conventional- 
ism, revealing themselves in their true nature. It is a 
sad and unfortunate reality to know and feel that each 
moment must have its sayings and doings hidden from, 
or presented in the garments of deceit, to a conventional 
world. I have seen much, I say, very much of the stern 
realities of noble character hushed into silence, driven 
back, cast in the shadowy past, sink into oblivion. 
Noble deeds live after us, though the world seeks to 
bury them with us. Open hearts, if truth beams forth, 
have a righteous reward. Realities hidden beneath the 
cloak of policy, that fiend who gnaws at the social heart 
of many a, otherwise, true man or woman, will some 
day blast the hopes, dispoil the home, drive the penates 
into exile, leaving nothing but the chared remains of a 
structure built on the foundation of deceit and — must 
I say crime! It is a social and moral crime; for what 
should be more sacred than the revelations of friend to 
friend, or the confidence of true friendship. Truth 
crushed to earth must rise and the true character will 
beam forth. If good, the sparks struck off from its 
gleaming light will kindle a flame in a hundred souls; a 
flame that may be the guiding star of a nation, an angel 
of peace and happiness. 

We cannot too carefully protect and foster the little 
truths, they are the factors of the sum, Truth. Taking 



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care of the members of the body politic, the nation will 
progress in wisdom and treasure all that is just and 
noble; thus the true soul evolves from its environments, 
collecting what is good to build a structure with its 
foundation on earth, its towers extending far into the 
blue ether and reflecting the symbol of heaven's beauty 
and glory. Would that I could people an ideal world 
with an ideal people! Then my Utopian dreams could 
I realize and say I know that this is life. 

But why dream of things that are chimerical? Why 
behold things as they should be and not as they are? 
We are given to day-dreaming, and delight to imagine 
the clouds, just in the horizon, some fairy lands and 
people them with a creation of our own. Why not 
speak of the real, because it may uncover some fault 
that time has hidden from a critical world; it may start 
the wheel of gossip rolling down the mountain, carry- 
ing with it all who chance to be in its pathway. Nations 
have risen on wings of justice; they have fallen beneath 
the thunderbolt of corruption. 

When we see people as they are, society as it is, we 
almost despair. The cry seems to be : " Down with the 
man who dares to inaugurate reform," or, " Put down 
the powers that be." 

But, after all, why should we view the dark side of 
life ? Why not let, or rather, make " the sunshine cover 
the shadow?" 

" Laugh, and the world laughs with you, 
Weep, and you weep alone." 

Is it wrong to hide sorrow ? It may be at times. Ev- 
erything has its season. The soul, true and noble, finds 
consolation in a sympathetic friend. We long to tell 
some true friend how sad we are, and after we have 
done so, we feel as though heaven had given us a spe- 
cial blessing. I am very sorry you are so sad and lonely; 



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it makes me sad also, because you know I sympathize 
with you; could I make you more happy, I would do so. 
In me you shall have a sympathetic friend, who knows 
what sorrow is. I am sorry you were sick. Are you 
better now ? Ihopeso. 

We should try to be always happy, you know it is a 
duty we owe each other, we owe society. Disappoint- 
ments must needs come, but the after hours may be 
pleasant, and sunshine and the mirage of heaven be re- 
flected in the blueness of purity. 

Your Friend, 



San Francisco, Jan. 13, 1892. 

My pear Mr. 

Yours dated 9th tells me of your true self, an 
answer written the same day mine was received. I never 
wrote when in so low a mood to any person, and if I 
have made you sad — please let that make you, as yon 
have made me, happier. 

Being yet poorly in health made me write thus to 
you, and you kindly received my dolefulness. I never 
appeared so gloomy to myself before. But from sad- 
nesses soon shine forth blessings, we know. I have not 
a gloomy disposition, quite the contrary, indeed, I rarely, 
rarely speak of any annoyance, or dwell upon disap- 
pointments. 

Someway you crossed my path just at a time to see 
me at my worst. I feel the little trials of life and revolve 
them sometimes in my mind, 'tis true, but I am tranquil 
apparently then, as when you saw me in the cars. Do 
not allow me to make you sad. Before I parted with 
you at our friends I hoped you would become my friend, 
and I wished so much to say that noon, would you be 



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willing to write to me sometimes. Well, we parted and 
we met again the strangest ! That I should unavoid- 
ably be led to the train upon which you were returning 
— do you think it accident ? It never was accidental. 
I am too earnest, too determinedly earnest, too honest 
in my purposes, to be forgotten by the higher ruling 
powers; and so are you, — something good will come of 
our meeting — I know not what, but we shall see. 

When people do ordinary things in an ordinary way, 
they are but ordinary people, never more — ordinary 
still. When my health returns — yes, I am better now, 
thank you — I will yet accomplish something, I trust, 
worthy of some regard. I will ! And your association 
will have inspired me, your sympathy, your honest, 
warm regard for me will not be the least of reasons. 
Again may I be egotistical enough to say — my regard 
for you is not in vain ! 

Our friend told me that your intention is to spend a 
few more years in study — to fit yourself better than the 
ordinary is, too, your plan. Combined with all your 
innate and active principles, you will live for noble 
work. If you have known sorrow, it is the storm that 
builded the giant Sequoia that towers while lilies come 
and go, and but for the storm where would the lilies 
grow ? I know how much every aspiring, honest person 
needs some other true, hopeful soul to say : "You have 
no need to fear " — we love some praise. It is the fulcrum, 
many, many times upon which the weight is held and 
lever rests ; and the man who needs and loves not wom- 
an's praise, I could not define, or woman — vice versa. 

O how much that gentleman at our friends needs a 
woman, whose love he worships, to be a close compan- 
ion in his daily walks, if that woman be of principle and 
balance, where he is just a little in need. I admired 
that man, but I saw where sorrow lurked by the way- 
side, and where, too, just the right loving woman ever 



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with him might avert that sorrow, but I said there are 
so few to even appreciate his rare talent and wonderful 
goodness, much less to see and round, make smooth 
and strong the weak structures here and there that 
mingle in that beautiful thread that leads from eternity 
to eternity. Men may come and men may go, but, that 
soul goes on forever. 

To have you know and appreciate all I would tell a 
friend, you must see my life from my standpoint, be 
able to assume for the time, my religious views, all the 
basic principles upon which my life rests, these I can 
only teach you little by little. You will not believe as 
I — possibly — nor should you : but you can be able to 
see the position I occupy in the long chain of forever, 
and I hope you will so listen and so learn my path that 
one day you will know me almost perfectly and sing 
from the same euchology of song. I think in this study 
you will find solace, and I know you will be strength- 
ened in your chosen profession — the law — as well as 
also be happier during the gliding moments, that rush 
and run, and then, sometimes, you will correct, strength- 
en and teach me to build my pathway surely on. 

No, I am not dreaming day dreams ; I am talking 
living realities with finalities unknown.. If there were a 
finality, it were different. You say — why not speak of 
the real ! That of which I speak is, to me, the real. 
Heaven is not a space, a location — it is a condition. If 
I put myself in a condition to enjoy, and to enjoy from 
pure and holy living realities — I have heaven now. 
When I have grown more of the divine soul with which 
to make more realities exoterically beautiful, I shall 
enjoy more and possess more still of heaven within, to- 
morrow I shall have more of heaven than to-day as I 
shall seek to have more knowledge and more spiritual 
vision ; so it comes every day. I am happier now than 
ever before. I was happier, I think, being sad than I 



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could have been, being happy without being sad ; that 
sadness coming to the surface — left clearer the soul 
bereft; perhaps two souls have a clearer and holier love 
of all which makes the present heaven, than if the seeds 
that grow the white lotus of our souls, had not burst 
their shells and disturbed the earthly soil. I cannot 
live in the low strata of the common life, I never have, 
I seek often to see what the common life is — a curiosity 
shop, a vanity fair — to which my life is fairy land. "My 
mind to me a kingdom is." I will lave in heavenly es- 
sences. We need not fear for others, only take great 
heed that we ourselves are pure, then it is we build for 
others. Self is and should be always first, then the un- 
selfish self obtains the power, vainly sought by running 
hither and thither, seeking to be known by deeds of 
charity or false exhibit of a false idea based upon prin. 
ciples falsely constructed. Remember not the I and 
let intuition and soulgrowth lead ; it will lead as the 
sunflower faces the sun, with no mistake. 

Let me dream my daytime dreams, at night let me 
have rest— perfect, tranquil, and to-morrow's day-dreams 
— I will dream them brighter then. Life is a dream, 
sweet, sweet dream. One day you will comprehend my 
day dreaming and say — Dream on, dear soul, dream on! 
I am not a pessimist, nor am I cynical. 

Now that you have said you will be my sympathetic 
friend I can never be quite so sad. I know you have so 
said with as much sacred solemnity as should the mar. 
riage nCow send forth — you will find your promise sac- 
redly worshiped — let levity live where life is light — in 
the public world, there the world's pleasantries are sweet 
meats — and we relish and enjoy. 

I have a very faithful old friend here, he has known 
me since my pinafore days, and he comes to see me 
nearly every day when I am in the city; but now he has 
been very ill for almost two weeks. He has seen 



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seventy-five annual landmarks, is an encyclopedia of 
knowledge. I went to see him yesterday, I was not 
able before, he is at his daughter's stately cottage where 
he is tended with every care. He was sitting up, with 
pencil and paper in hand to write to me. Dear old 
friend. When I returned I was asked — would not I be 
happy were I situated as is his daughter. She has 
everything she wishes I believe. I said: — "No!" She 
has that which makes her happy — I must have something 
quite different. My needs are different. I ha*ve had a 
different past. My present is not hers. In my present I 
live; I build but convergent lines, and sooner or later 
they will meet and my present then will be my reward 
for my present now. I look not to see when or where 
the meeting of these lines. To-day I could not be 
happy in her place and not another day would make me 
nearer her life. Fear not to build thine Eyrie on the 
heights where golden splendors lay". 

There I have been building with, it seems, every 
possible odds against me; but I will succeed, because 
my will so wills, the Gods assist. 

To those who have been friends to me I have been 
kind as I knew, and many times I have been told by 
them that: — "This day" or "This hour has been the 
happiest of my life!" Ofttimes the first and last time 
I saw those faces, yet they carried with them a good 
will for me, and this is one kind of power. That I gave 
to them that which they cherished, is pleasure, particu- 
larly so if strangers. You possess so much of this quiet 
influence, think of yourself in this, value yourself for 
that quiet strength which holds with more power than 
can the armies of kings; that still, si/ent hold you have 
upon humanity — use it! 

One day we shall meet again somewhere, sometime, 
it may not be so long. 



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You must not feci that your letters must be long, you 
probably have not the time. 

Ever the same, 



DAY-DREAMS. 

Gath'ring day dreams flowers 

In the silvery morning light, 
Garlanding for bowers — 

That thy future may be bright — 
And garlanding and building 

Where flowery pathways gleam, 
Thy soul's love-castle gilding — 

O dream thy daytimes dream. 

Chorus . 

O dream, and build, my fair one — 

A castle grand for me; — 
Thy garlands — canst thou spare one? 

O dream, and — dream Lady — 

Thy day dreams — dream for me, 

O dream, and dream — Lady, 

O dream — Lady. 

Strewing day-dreams flowers 

In evenings shading light — 
■Where threat'ning darkness lowers 

Weave rainbows, colors bright; — 
Weave love within yon dwelling — 

If realities so seem — 
Nor waken — while I'm telling — 
O dream thy daytimes dream. 

Chor us. 



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San Francisco Jan. 15 — '92. 
My Dear Mr. 

I send you this little Day-Dream effusion which I 
regret has not music prettily set for the words. 

I do not know you well enough to know if you care 
for such little outbursts. 

Please write so that I may receive your letter Monday 
as we shall pack our things to-morrow and Monday and 
go away I suppose immediately; then I may not have 
much opportunity to write. 

Ever the same 



Thursday Jan. 21 — 

Am yet too ill to go away from San Francisco. He 
has not written — had I gone he would now have no 
means of knowing my address. 

My letters were such poor ones — written while so ill — 
he does not care for them — I did not — as is my practice 
— copy but a few of them: — I can copy them if I have 
them, now while I am ill. Yes, I can do this. I will 
write for them! He does not care for them — and that 
Day-Dreams — so light! — he is tired of my childishness — 
why did I — why have I taken the initiative in writing. 
I cannot excuse myself! I will write requesting that 
my letters be returned and that will end this spell that 
has so entranced me. 

San Francisco Jan. 21, '92. 
My dear Sir, 

Have you been well? — "Somehow I have not been well!'' 
— I am very much better. I attended church last Sun- 
day for the first time since I returned. Heard a very 
educative sermon, interesting and refreshing. 

Happy should be the person who is not compelled by 
illness to neglect the sanctuary. 



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Every day this week when the sun shone wannest, 1 
have been out. 

I have had congestion of the brain and La Grippe of 
the throat and head. I did not tell you how sick I was 
because I thought you might feel badly. 

How many things can culminate to almost break the 
reason down! I have suffered more to-day than yester- 
day, perhaps it is only the breaking away. I do so 
sincerely hope you have escaped this awful grasp. 

I will relate to you a little incident of to-day by first 
going back a little; just before going away on this trip 
a friend loaned me his manuscript of poems, many of 
them were school-day poems, not didactic, but pleasing; 
its perusal I enjoyed and three times went to his office 
to return it, each time as he was not in I brought it 
back. When I went away I had put it in the center of 
one of my trunks. No persons hands had touched it, but 
my friend's and mine. He has given many interesting 
lectures here which I have most times attended. Once 
before, when I was going away he said: "I am so sorry 
I shall not know how to lecture without you in the 

audience." While at 1 received a letter from him, 

the wording of which was indicative of a positive mood 
in the superlative degree — he wished his manuscript! 
Not remembering in which trunk I had placed it, I en- 
closed the keys of two, with his letter, and one by my- 
self, to another friend requesting that friend to procure 
and return the M. S. The author's enclosed letter put 
that friend into a superlative mood, therefore at o 
leisurely convenience the M. S., was returned. As I 
was passing his office to-day, he alighted from his 
carriage and said: — "Well, well, well, how do you do; — 
how do you do, how do you do. I was angry, awfully 
angry at you my friend. I did not need to be, I did not 
need the M.S." Extending my gloved hand I said: "We 
will ho. better friends!" he replied: — "Yes, better friends/" 



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I then learned he was out for the first since New Year. 
He too had been a victim of La Grippe. He said: — "J 
am very ashamed of myself, I have felt mean more thai: 
a dozen times, because I wrote you in that angrj 
mood!" Now we are friends and ever will be. It oft 
times takes some little ruff to make a friendship firm. 

It had so transpired that this was the second person 
whom I met this week who much desired to set straight 
some little as he thought, neglect of courtesy, and the 
eyes of the deluded offender beamed with delight when 
he met me and had an opportunity to offer me an 
apology for really a fancied offence. 

More terseley now will the thread of our friendship 
run. True friendship can but slowly grow — else it is an 
idle dream. 

Friday noon. The sun shines warm, but to-day I am 
a prisoner again: my head is more painful, and now 
before I close I wish to say, some day you will compre- 
hend me. 

I know you have not but that you have not, I have nc 
threnody to sing. 

I could have written you in quite a different style. 
and followed the hard cut mathematical thread of 
prescribed rules, better I love the freedom of the rollick- 
ing river and rill; — 

I know you so well I almost think I know you better 
than you know yourself. My compliments are not 
flattering idle ones. My friendship, was not a worth- 
less thing. 

Read the language of the large, rolling, venomous 
eye of the serpent. Read the language of the large 
indolent eyeof wouldbe ease and luxury and worse — refine 
them down through the numberless grades until you 
find them sufficiently diminutive to focus upon the 
Powers that hold the Universe together. Look in your 
mirror! Do you read the language of the eye you be- 



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hold? Do you read there that away in the walks and in 
the realm of Universal Spirit, such eyes weild their 
power and find their home. Would you thrust from you 
and scorn this letter should I analyze farther? — fearing 
— I cease. 

Go, drink deep from the souls that know! Go, un- 
ravel the secrets of the souls of the Poets. What they 
know and tell to each other, and but lightly hint to the 
common world. Go, learn and teach, as you have learn- 
ed and taught before. Read the — Romance of Two 
Worlds— and learn to tread electrical floors. Hints, 
only hints of powers that be. It is forty years, I think, 
since Tchernuichevski wrote — What Is To Be Done? — 
Recently the World was jostled by Bellamy looking 
backward. Read the Misfortune of Having Intelligence. 
Lean not too much upon intellection, deduce from this 
what you will! As a man thinketh, so he is. Scorn not 
to read the tiresomely disconnected, seemingly uncon- 
centrated Secret Doctrine. — We collect from the wild 
nativities the flowers which best we love. 

Let your Theosophy be broad as the blue ether above 
you. Learn that physiology which teaches that the 
mortal dwelling your soul inhabits was prepared for 
spirit habitation as was the Universe. As the elegant 
mansion reflects the wealth of the purse which built, it; 
so thy house of clay reflects the wealth of soul that 
sought it. And with all remember there is an honesty 
which may be crushed, but not injured. 

Please enclose this letter, and all my letters, except- 
ng the very first one, in the addressed envelope. Do 
not fail to have me receive them by next Monday. 

I will step back a pace, it is my theory and has been 
my practice to refuse the ungloved hand. 

My first letter is due the kind and gentlemanly 
stranger who befriended me, //case keep that, for by me 



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it must remain undisturbed; in all kindness I ask for the 
others. 

Believe me ever, 

Yours Truly, 



The Lavender was merely a twig from that which I 
was wearing — not sent with any reference to its 
language. 

"And the eye, that beautiful spirit's shrine." 



To- 



Calif. Jan. 23d, '92. 

My Dear Miss. . 

With this letter you will find your request. "Have 
I been well?" I have never had better health. But I 
am weary, almost too weary to attend to my work. Why 
am I weary? Because I am true to my friends. Be- 
cause I try to be a friend in time of need. A young 
man in this place, who is my true friend, and is far 
away from home, became very sick, and the last two 
weeks I have been at his side, day and night, except 
while I was at my office each day. 

Do I feel like working? Do I feel like doing any- 
thing? Well, no! Each moment seems an hour. Have 
I written to you? Have I written to my many friends? 
No! Can you tell why? Can anyone tell why? Have 
other people had the care of a true friend, and upon 
whose care depended his life? Have other people failed 
to sleep for two weeks, caring each day for sick and 
well people? Have other people because they have 
done all this received hasty letters? (I will answer 
all of the above questions myself). Yes! The world is 



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always the same. A present experience is jnst one of 
the ages gone by. 

Do you know me? Does anyone know me? I always 
allow a lady her own pleasure, consequently, I count 
my friends by the hundred. But enemies I have none. 

My motto is to be happy and let others be happy; my 
friends are happy, because I have never spoken a word 
to make them unhappy. 

If my friends are happy I am happy because they are 
so. Why bosom trouble? There is no reason why. 

Do I know you? I have read your every act, thought, 
and emotion; and by a person who has seen so much of 
men and women as I have, and has learned to read 
people as they are, you can be read like a book. I knew 
I would get that first letter, I knew why you wrote it. 
I knew I would get the present letter. I know the 
motive that prompted it. 

Can a person who has had little experience in the 
world of to-day hide herself from one who has learned 
to analyze the sum of characteristics that are found in 
every home and public place. You fail when you say 
poets see deep into the real, you should have said they 
may see deep into the ideal. People are not what they 
seem. Ideal is not real. 

I hope you will be happy and prosperous. A well 
wishing good bye, 

From your friend; 



This last letter was received on the morning of the 
twenty-fifth, also the returned letters. That evening I 
wrote him a letter. What I wrote I do not know! I 
never shall know. I did not retain a copy. I only 
know I should not have written at all that night. The 
ext morning — Tuesday — I wrote the following. 



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San Francisco, Jan. 26, — '92. 
My Dear Mr. 

This morning the rain sifts, the sun shines. A 
perfect Winter this seems to have been, excepting the 
epidemic, La Grippe. 

Last evening I closed my letter and it was mailed to 
you. I could not think, I staggard for the time on the 
undefined (You knew the motive) — but when I 
sought the consistency between any unpleasant im- 
plication there, and the closing of the letter I said, No! 
It can not be; — so gave it no more thought. 

[ never allow myself to search for unpleasantries; but 
look away over and above them; pass the estuary, and 
sail on the calmer sea of truth and happiness. 

I had reason for wishing my letters and for wishing 
them on Monday if I had them at all, yet on Monday I 
wrote you and did not do as I intended. Do we know 
ourselves? Not an hour ahead! Do you know me? 
When you do, you will have learned to encourage me, 
and to kindly correct my errors in little things that 
make in the aggregate the embellishment of a beautiful 
whole. I was dissatisfied, so dissatisfied with my 
letters to you; I never complained in my life before. 
You received it kindly, and replied kindly; yet I could 
not wear away my dissatisfaction. 

Do I know you? I had reference to your nobler, 
higher self. You are tired hearing this? No, you are 
not tired hearing this? What right have I to know 
or to think of the lesser qualities, if you should possess 
little failings what right have I to see them — would I 
refer to them if I did? I did not scan with a critic's eye 
to see if the euphony was perfect. I repeat — I only saw 
that there was far more than the ordinary of a superior 
refinement. I worshiped that; did I ask what sorrow 
made it so? did I quiz at all? I knew the fact. 

Did I not see your eyes downward cast while a vo- 



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lume of thought was evolved! and the clouds come and 
go like lightning flashes, telling transverse lines of 
experience! I am not unfeeling! my friend observed 
that there was in us a resemblance, and spoke of it, you 
may remember. I, had I not already trembled beneath 
the impress of the lines pari passu of our natures! 
Have I shaken off, or can I glide from beneath that 
power? Can any person, or will ever any person in this 
stage of the Rounds of Races loose themselves from the 
high correspondences? Lives, in their natures, are as 
varied, as numerous. Equalities may never be! — A 
near approach is rare! But, but, as painly felt and seen 
as — yes I will say it — as by each of us. 

You told you felt the same power in every way but 
in the plainest, plain words. You made me dare to 
write you the first letter. You wished to receive it. 
I had not recovered from malaria of the nerves, suffi- 
ciently to direct my pen, but I wrote and you were 
joyed that I did. You are more secretive, cautious, than 
I, if possible — but — you were as pleased to meet me 
again as I to meet you. It is nonsense to act or talk 
otherwise. It is sense to have true comprehension. 

Do you know me? Does my brother? Is a father 
apprehensive of his child's true nature? It is only in 
the sense I employed when I said I knew you — that any 
person knows another, and not too often is that recogni- 
zed — in the sense of the one grand sum of nobleness — 
No major or minor details coming in. Do you know 
me? Ah — then I would not have so trembled with fear 
of miscomprehension. 

Do you know me? I would to all that's good, you 
did. But not until more of truth is assimilated will 
any one know the other. This is no apothegm, but 
lives unrecognized. 

You might have thought I loved you, and for that love 
I desired that you marry me to-morrow, next week, 



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next year, or in five years. I am not responsible to-day 
for that which to-morrow, next week or next year will 
evolve in my nature — but now; now, I am accountable, 
for the ever now; and now my love for you is far 
superior to that love; it is a love unselfish, a worship 
ful love that nothing can kill, because founded not 
upon hard realty but the ideal that is there, no matter 
how the storms rise or winds blow. 

When for a brief moment I felt may be you had 
wronged me by that — "motive" — that did not lessen my 
love. But the love, the common love which leads to 
matrimony — does it last? Does it stand storms? You 
live in the real and it almost crushes you, you are wearied 
now nigh to death with the hard real, it is your world. 
O you are too good, too good, too good, it will kill you to 
look for the real. The common drudge of the real does 
not feel it, you have outgrown the real; you should not 
see the real, and then to you there is ?io real, and then 
you will begin to lift your friends out of the real; then 
you will find power! Then you will laugh in the face 
of the real, you will laugh at the serpent that en- 
tangled you — you will then pity the constricted that are 
still in the brambles of the real. I dropped for a time or 
two to the level of the real, and you caught the shower of 
dispondency. I rallied soon above it, and I say there is 
no real, because when I do not know it, to me there is 
none! If I hint and impress upon another that there is 
no real, that ideal is, is mine, and that other begins to 
take on the drapery of the ideal, begins to feel light, 
buoyant, six months later I see that other, as I did in — , 
he looked a changed man, though a man of mistakes 
and sorrows, I step quickly up — though in presence of 

others, and say: "Mr. how do you do, I am glad to 

see you!" he replies: — "You are? That is a world to 
me!" "I heard you were in town!" and I reply that: — 
"Mr. told me you had spoken very highly of me 



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to him!" He is lifted, he is in the ideal, his eyes sparkle, 
he turns away to hide tears of joy — I meet him again, 
and say: "Will you come and spend an evening?" "Thank 
you, thank you, I will!" and when he does, he inquires: 
— "Why did you not tell me more last Spring?" But last 
Spring I merely laid the corner stones, I told him a castle 
couldbe builded. He could not get away from the foun- 
dation, and one by one a stone would settle there until 
with fullness of heart, the once poor man said: — "You 
were a mystery to me last Spring, then I could scarcely 
endure life, now, I live in my, your, ideal mansion!" and 
he does, while fairies carry his burdens. 'Tis no idle 
dream. Would that you might long say of me: — "You 
are inexperienced with the common world." In con- 
versational and business way, I am. Many different lands 
and waters I have not seen; but in California one sees 
the people of the world— Native sons and daughters 
the men of '49, people from everywhere; do I read 
faces? am I no physiognomist? Have I not boarded in 
private families, in numerous hotels a few hundred miles 
North and South, a very little space, very little, yet all 
kinds from the great world have passed. Am I no 
phrenologist? have I no intuition? Does not the very 
move and form of the hand and even the finger nails 
speak — the hair, the voice, or even the thought, that 
holds before the utterance, the hesitancy, the pose; do 
not all these talk, tell me, tell me — what I have not 
observed! but do not, please, place me in the common 
home, on the common level, with the common public — 
there is not my home, not there, not there! 

Do I sit myself placidly down, passively await histeria 
and all the slime passivity invites; or do I in active 
mood assert that I am I, and no obsession is for me! 
Let me think, and be cast away by the world for think- 
ing. I will land on a pinnacle of heavenly fame, where 
eons, otherwise, might but slowly take me. 



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Have I tried to please you? No! The ordinary 
young lady, times without number I have observed, 
dons her best gown, coils the extra curl, wears the extra 
ruffle, smiles the extra smile, slacks the tension of the 
voice, agrees or disagrees, assents or otherwise, in silly 
bewitching style, all for effect. Do I do these? Have I 
no position which to-day is mine? Nor do I stand in the 
place of a lawyerlike Amazon. In the quiet home let 
woman's rhetoric and eloquence fall in the graceful 
paths of tender love. 

O, I wish I might be able to make you dispel that 
weariness! I thought perhaps you did not care for my 
letters, my poor letters, and I wished them. I had 
thought you would be tired, and so I wrote you not to 
think I wished you to write long letters; I tried to seem 
kind, for / am kind. I thought of your office hours, I 
felt I had even overdone in my desire to give sympathy: 
and, I said "my friendship was not a worthless thing" — 
because I gave it in all honesty. I ask nothing, nothing, 
nothing, not a letter, not a word — unless from the full- 
ness of your heart, which makes it not a task. Can I 
be more kind? Is this not ideal kindness, and more? 
Think of all the good things I have said of you, and ask 
yourself if I could be impetuous and unkind; it is not 
my nature! 

I may possess that in my nature which gives me a 
personality and individuality of positiveness, but not 
unkindness. 

And now what better subscription to a letter than — 

Respectfully Yours, 



San Francisco, Jan. 30, '92. 
My Dear Mr. 

Someway this Saturday eve I cannot refrain 
from writing again to you. I am sorry I appeared 



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hasty. "Things are not what they seem.'' I was not 
what I seemed, in that. But are you feeling better? I 
wish 1 could know. 

I scarcely remember that I am not well — only I 
cannot work as I wish. I am much better I trust — one 
whole month gone! — and I yet confined. Can you 
pardon my ebullience? I only wish to say — I wish I 
might say something which you would deem as kind 
and that would lighten your heart. 

I have in the sum or abstract that which I desired 
from the letters enclosed; when I have finished with the 
rest, I will send them. I could not tell you why I 
wished them because you had not written me, and I was 
too cowardly; I am not what I seemed. 
Always the same, 

Respectfully. 



"No man feels another's soul quivering and struggling 
in his grasp without excitement, let his nerves and his 
self-restraint be what they may." 

Cal. Jan. 31, '92. 

My Dear Miss. 

You letters have found me. 

Did I expect them? Yes! Why? You know human 
nature. I do. Hence — Do we understand ourselves? 
I sometimes think other people do better understand 
what we will do. 

Will you believe me? I do not feel hurt, because you 
called for yourietters, It was your right and privilege 
to do so. You did so. Why should / complain? We 
are all free to do right. 

You felt discouraged, because I did not write about 
myself, perhaps giving more affectionate letters to 
another. Pardon me for what I am going to say. I 



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have made it a rule, always, not to write about my past. 

Who can be interested in a life that is past? I did not 
answer your hint also, whether I had other correspon- 
dents. I have, and a good number of ladies. Why not? 

I have never wronged a person to my knowledge. I 
have many friends. I wish to keep them. I treat them 
kindly. I write them kind letters. They treat me 
kindly, and write me kind and affectionate letters. It 
is worth a world to me: Am I sad? Why should I be? 
My life has not been a sad one, but very pleasant. It 
has been the life of a student. You know what that 
means. A life of toil (mental toil,) incessant toil. 

I realize what I must accomplish, hence I live the life 
{alone) I do. I have passions of love as strong as any 
man, but I have complete control of them — I think I 
have — I must control them, because my plan for the 
future requires a sacrifice. To a person with limited 
means, it says much — he must, for sometime, live alone, 
or see the persons who are dearest to him, in want. 

Could my nature endure that? No! I wish to see my 
dearest friends (all my friends) happy. Am I right? 
Why not stop to think and see things as they are? Be 
it ideal or real. I appreciate your kindness to me. 
Your honesty and your true worth. 

Will you take my advice? Do no allow yourself to 
become enwrapt in a man till you thoroughly know him. 
I believe you understand me, but do not know me. It is 
this same sense in which I mean to use the word as apply 
ingto you. I understand you, I think, thoroughly, but do 
not know you. You are right. "It takes much time to 
know others." Please do not imagine you see superior 
qualities in me, that, perhaps later, when you fail to 
find them, you will be disappointed. There is nothing 
so crushing as the failure of an ideal to become real, 
right, just and true: I draw from what I see and have 
seen in other lives. I shall try to profit by the ex- 



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penence and advice of others. Are we to step into 
the same pitfalls of the past ages? If so, experience 
is not a teacher, education is a myth. But no; we are 
the product of a sum of evolutions, mental, moral, 
physical. We should be in our emotional sphere. I 
sometimes think this the most dangerous; upon it is tied 
the silken thread that binds society on earth and in 
heaven. Can we be too careful? No! I am cautious 
because it it is my nature, and that nature has been 
developed by training. Am I right? 

I appreciate the kind things you say of me, but be 
sure they apply to real attributes, that will stand proof. 

I hope you will soon recover and be able more truly 
to enjoy life. 

Your friend, 



Calif., Jan. 31, 1892. 

My Dear Miss: 

I mailed you a letter to-day, and this evening 1 
I received your latest. 

You could please me very much by not worrying. I 
do not feel hurt or sad; I knew you were true, and it 
has done me a world of good to see and know an hon- 
est lady. I hope you will not feel offended by my sur- 
mises in today's letter: My judgment tells me I am 
right. Our emotional faculties should not be deceived, 
it may be the ruin of a happy life. 

I try to be honest with all people. Hence I venture 
my advice. 

From your friend, 



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San Francisco, Feb. 3, '92. 
My Dear Mr: 

Yours received. 

A fully webbed and smoothly woven network of in- 
tricate traceries, with rich, soft, velvety forget-me-ncts, 
I should say, ambiguously inlaid: andall in all a painting 
grand, that to explore its secret palaces, they turn to 
cabinets of hidden secrets wherein a soul doth dwell to 
shrive itself from wordly woe, from hidden woe; and 
spotless live, like to its early source; and there gain 
strength and force by winding through a thousand 
labyrinths of solitudes drear and dark; not there could 
one star shine, though its soul could call forth a re- 
tinue of thunder bolts and tear the clouds away; and 
with beams of crystals, wreaths, gems and flowers, weave 
rainbow-beauty, pave back the path to dawn of day, 
dip the robe in the full sum of hope; and set the lily- 
bell of success and happiness to crown, with vast Im- 
possibilities overcome; and teach that self alone is 
base, that pride is pain, and that beneficence which is 
bliss, and what mighty war true greatness of a soul 
can wage when in communion with minds unknown. — 
I seem to hear a sigh: but Friend sigh not! Why 
live a prosy life? There is a wave though deep, silent 
tideless, that ever rolls, that carries those who trust 
not in a languid passivity, but in studied active 
beauty of combined strength; the combined strength of 
ones own powers, or in the combined strength of all 
power that converges to one hope, and whole. I 
know what a student's life is, yes. The trees beneath 
which I have studied, the quiet mazarine sky, the trick- 
ling of the silvery water over the rounded pebbles, the 
threadless needles of the lofty pines, the feathery moss, 
or the garden trees, as — 



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I've watched the grand magnolia 
Its waxen leaves unfold. 
Unfold, unfold as character 
Doth so ourselves unfold; — 
Until by winding breezes — 
Strong and sifting showers — 
Its fibered soul is strengthened, 
As these do strengthen ours. 
These know that I know a student's life: Yes, I 
think I am equal to the task of analyzing every sen- 
tence and word, every exoteric and every esoteric 
meaning contained in your letters. 

You speak of sacrifice; should it be termed or felt 
as such? Maybe, but I have lived much time as this, and 
there is sweet reward, beyond valuation almost; in all 
you have my sympathy; nay, my approval and myGod- 
bless-you. 

My way is planned. The possibility of its execu- 
tion, lies with the Gods. I wait, who knows what 
next. 

We do not criticise; — 
Simply relate; — 
The world we cannot change; — 
But cultivate. 

Ever the same. 

Respectfully, 



San Francisco, Feb. 5, '92. 

My Dear Mr. 

Your letters received. Permit me to thank you 
for their contents. Yet not one unfamiliar thought do 
they contain, not one ! If you remember, I express my- 
self in unmincing terms in my letter of Tuesday, the 



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26th. I see some things differently from you; but, 
is that wrong ? Now please pardon me once more, 
I had a motive in my pleading — dictatorial — seemingly 
so — letters, you do not comprehend now; — I do not 
complain, you can not, not now, some day you will. It 
may be long, it may not, I can not tell ! Again you 
only think you understand me, you do not know you 
do. When we can say we know ! No, I can not say 
more now, there are volumes waiting — but, not yet, not 
yet. 

If among your lady friends correspondents, there be 
one, whose heart and hand you could seek, if good means 
were yours, that one is not worthy the offer of your 
Jove, unless she rejoice at your nobleness, at your what 
you term sacrifice, or more; if she be possessed of 
means and does not offer to aid you, she is not worthy 
your thought for a moment; or, if she sees, or thinks 
she sees, the way to work such problems out in easy 
algebraic glide and does not delicately make the ad- 
vances, which lead to that end, though you may with 
strong arm hold her back, she is no true woman ! 

I might indeed detail to you of sacrifice. No ! I do 
not allow that word in my category. I might tell of 
past or coming loneliness, but why should I ? I have 
not entertained you in such manner; I have not said of 
little things of life, nor do I ever to any one; nor have 
you. I did not expect you to. You, too, have written 
such letters as I expected, such letters as I wished. I 
thank you, cordially thank you. - 

You have made me happier, perhaps happier than 
you know. 

I endeavor to live each day as if it might be my last, 
to treat my friends, all people, as if I feared to-morrow 
they would be here no more, — and when I can not be 
thus kind, the negation is painful. 

I, too, am a student, I have much to learn, it takes 



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time. All things take time, and time is all, because it 
is the now of Eternity. 

My relapse has been severe, but the warm Spring 
will soon return. 

With my best wishes, 

Ever the same, 

Respectfully, 



This last letter — did I mail to him ? No ! Why 
should I ? I loved him for his very best self , and that 
self I hoped to benefit. My self was benefited. Why 
repeat ? His letters were enclosed in chilly wrappings. 

I liked them ! Each sentence was carefully 
studied with cold dignity; about which there is some- 
thing grand. It seems like watching the lightning's 
play on one side, and the stately snow-wrapped moun- 
tains on the other, with the evergreen garden of hope 
lying between. While the breath of the soul waits, still, 
the purity you drink, and feel that heaven is in the 
draught. 

Did I mad the one dated February 5, 1892 ? Yes ! 
Maybe it was not the best one; -I wrote several, can 
one always do or say the best ! Was I satisfied ? I 
was sad ! And not satisfied with my letter nor myself. 
Who is satisfied with one's self when they desire to do 
their very best, desire to be honest, and when they 
know they are holding souls in their hands. Yet: — 

" I'll prove more true 

Than those who have more cunning to be strange." 



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San Francisco, Feb. '.), '92. 
My Dear Mr. . 

Your two last letters — although I attempted to an- 
swer, I did not satisfactorily to myself. There was 
such a volume in them and from whatever standpoint I 
might view I seemed baffled to substantiate that posi- 
tion. Maybe it was all in the seeming. Hard prob- 
lems have always presented themselves, it seems, to 
me. I often ask myself, does every girl face upon 
every turn such difficult weights and measures; what is 
the good and why try to solve? Because life is a 
school and school means study ! Well, then I have 
schoolmates, truly. 

I often think of the man, at Fresno, Calif., who found 
himself utterly lost in the dense of night; as he was, it 
seemed, in an immense barbed-wire field; after driving- 
hours, he camped until morning, and the field that had 
so deluded him, he found, was a small lot with broad 
open gate and quite near his own home. 

A lawyer in the garden of his practice, plants an 
evergreen, in its cool, refreshing shade, after reaching 
hither and thither in rakestraw gathering, he begins to 
retreat, drives the verbal blow that kills his opponent, 
smiles the jury, and lifts the downcast hope of his 
client, then basks in happy satisfaction. Many times 
the dead opponent rallies, slowly, but surely, and the 
■ light of another horizon flows to zenith, until cool 
shadow vanishes because of the direct vertical rays. 

There is something grand in intricacies and in solv- 
ing them to a happy sum. Maybe you did not realize 
the garb in which your letters would present themselves 
to me. We can not tell how our letters seem to others, not 
always. I try to think, how does this or that appear to 
me and how will it appear to the reader; but that is 
impossible. In a letter one may not be able to com- 



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prehend what is simple and plain. I say it with good, 
kind feeling; your last two letters c//d and do seem in- 
tricate. When I think I am capable of their analyza- 
tion, I fail every time. Certainly there is one gauzy 
thin veil, that of ocher lady correspondents. 

Permit me to speak of putting soul into that which 
we do. Not long since I saw an educated young Eng- 
lishman writing to his mother in London; he penciled 
his letter, corrected and copied it in ink. I asked : — 
" Do you always copy your letters ?" he replied : "/ 
do!" I can not, I must feel that I am writing right to 
the heart and soul of some person. I know that all 
successful authors must do this in manuscript work, 
they must, or there is but cold formality instead. Put 
feeling from the depth of soul as that soul is cultivated 
and capable; laugh at the grammar and construction of 
sentences when next the production is perused. 

Again, positiveness, O the value of that word — in my 
love for positiveness, I may say — "Sacrifice!" I do 
not allow that word in my category, and feel the blun- 
der when I have said; I should say, please do not per- 
mit that word in your category. In a rush of positive- 
ness ofttimes gentleness and politeness are sacrificed; 
but one learns the lesson and does not repeat the rude- 
ness as often. Yet do we value less the infinite power 
and goodness of the proper quality of positiveness we 
cultivate. See the suffering and misery, sorrow to the 
almost infant heart because the parent is hesitating or 
yielding, or lacks firmness; instead, with one gentle 
word, positively spoken, correct a child, correct a fault 
and keep peace in the child's heart, by making its path 
imperatively plain. One word instead of hundreds, and 
a sway that holds for life. I think I always have felt 
this; when I recall the days of teaching, not one little 
fractious chap now a man, thought of disobeying. My 
positiveness in some of my letters perhaps is a little 



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harsh, but they were written from soul to soul without 
regard of their standing otherwise; and I trust you have 
excused these imperfections. I love to weigh the weight 
of words far into Eternity, and could wish to find a 
science underlining every word. Is not this right ? 
Where does positiveness end ? In that perfection the 
Ancient of Days. Where goes bravery when in the path 
af Truth ? To the greatest A. M. N. But Truth when 
we try to handle that, is always fragmentary, brittling 
like dead grass beneath the footsteps of August. We 
know there is no Truth but One. When we are Truth 
we are that One, and yet we grieve that little twigs and 
sapplings are not the tree. We must value the frag- 
ments for their adherency will make them hold. I know 
of nothing better to contemplate than the growth of 
souls immortal. 

From the large roll of exchange papers which come 
to me every day. I gather what the clergy are doing 
by reading the reports of sermons, learn of the many 
happy things they say; and I know that he to whom is 
not given an abundance of new budding knowledge; 
will have to, and soon, seek a garden, not of minds; but 
of man-weeds, thorns and thistles. 

I might in reference to your aspiration for greater 
knowledge, mention Lincoln, Horace Greely, Garfield, 
Henry Ward Beecher, and others; but you are familiar 
with their histories. They who lead the world, climb 
the steps slowly. I knew and saw all of which you 
have spoken ! How much have I to learn; am I not 
walking in a similar path. 

It has seemed easy to me to look at the grand ideals 
all along the pathway of life. 

Permit me to say that the love of which you intimate 
must grow, although it may be recognizable at sight ! And 
why? Docs not all good grow? Is there a finality? It 



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may at times be like the Semper Vivens rolling over an 
arid desert, catching life at an ill Oasis. 

If a person is natural and easy because he desires 
to be, and is pleasing; and is unnatural because he 
thinks he must be so, is this not discernible ? Why 
not be natural at all times ! You say, why bosom sor- 
row ! Wny hide any truth from any one to whom that 
truth is really due. Please do not think it sacrifice to 
seek that which seems best. I have always tried to 
seek first that which seems best. One can live more 
in a few years when fully prepared, than half a lifetime 
unprepared. Do you believe the Gods will help you ? 
Are you not conscious of their aid many, many times ? 
As the Ruler of a Country has many who are high and 
near to him to aid in his governmental power, so, does 
not the great I Am, have those, who are nearest his per- 
fection to aid in his great governmental work ? Do 
you not aid and instruct those beneath you ? When 
does this law stop? When we begin to trace in the as- 
cending scale ! Does it not pervade all spirit ? and is 
not the higher spirit ever molding that beneath it ? 

The correspondences never cease; everything is 
wrought by the same code of ethics — moral, physical, 
spiritual. The good is always hidden until we delve for 
it. You have set an ideal of what you must become, 
relax that tension a little and say: " 1 must become 
unto that ideal for which I am best fitted to endeavor 
to attain, and in this effort I know the Gods will lead 
me surely on, though I may not now see the goal." 
Life is real; but we look ever to the ideal which obscures 
the real. By your manner toward me at our friends 
and upon the train — I knew positively you had 
no lady to whom you are writing letters other than 
friendship. You are a true gentleman, and you solicit- 
ed my love in a gentlemanly manner, plainly, and with 
restrained emotion that was painful. There is no other 



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lady. You would be the last person to permit me to 
think that; you are true to yourself and there is no other 
lady. 

Why did you seek me at first and why did I rejoice 
that you did ? I will not use that despicable word — 
affinity; but I do use the word Equality; or, if you 
please, Harmony. You could not help nor hinder; 
you loved me and you were free — no other lady could 
interfere, or was a possible hindrance. I was free. 
Why? Because I did not permit my love to go where 
I saw sacrifice to soul growth. But Harmony took it 
whole souled. I am young ! Yes, but it is not my 
spirit as old as Eternity ? Has it not always existed ; 
and has it not had experience ? Do I study my Spirit, 
and myself ? And does my Spirit and my Self stand 
dumb and not answer ? Do I not plead with my best 
Soul that it shall give me of its wisdom ? And do not 
the answers return in single flashes, in composite flashes 
of truth. Do I grasp them in the lightened and en- 
lightened chamber of my intellect from that Camera 
Obscura which has had the experience of the Rounds 
of Ages and Eternity! When was my spirit born? 
What good does it not steroscope if that communion 
with ones self is sufficiently sought, what is the revela- 
tion ? The revelation of Eternity, could we come close 
enough to ourselves. ''Are there chords in the harps 
of humanity ?" and why ? Attuned through the great 
Eternity pari passu ; and are they not recognizable? 
To each other ? They are ! You knew this, you rec- 
ognized and so did I. All persons who are given to 
listening to their spirit voice, and have a safe stand- 
point from which to view and listen, must recognize. 

Marriage is more than a failure; it is sin otherwise 
viewed. And is the world full of sin ? Is there not 
good reason there should be? When base emotional 
character rules, do we see that which will stand test ? 



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Do I know that my praise is founded upon real attrib- 
utes ? I repeat your texts " Are there chords, — ? 
" Are there harmonies, — ?" I have only seen the 
parallels, were they real ? Yes, for I have written to 
you as I could not have written unless I knew I was 
right. Could I have written to a person in whom these 
harmonies were not found and received the gentlemanly 
answers that I have received ? No ! My confidence is 
secure; because, you are right. " There are chords, 
— ?" " There are harmonies." Do parallel loves see, 
magnify, multiply and seek discords ? Is perfection 
yet on earth ? Do not such loves hush the discords as 
a skillful player tunes at once the ill-toned note of his 
instrument. You trust not these high parallels, unre- 
vered they pass, you sacrifice ! you obtain, you are be- 
ginning to succeed in your profession, a bright zenith 
you see. Now, you are ready to accept soul sympathy. 
About you now smile many tempters, you have now no 
time to select; your roving is over, your opportunity 
gone! You have passed the '• Harmonies to be pro- 
tected " your text words — you accept she whom op- 
portunity now presents. What follows ? Lives dis- 
tressed, inharmony never to be attuned, never. Your 
spirit is as old as the Universe; or, the Universal, as 
old as the Most Holy One and a part of that One ; 
you can commune with its secrets and not be deceived. 
If you do not in all things stand test, that is a great 
loss to you; all failings are great losses; but in view of 
the vast harmony these failings are but little felt by 
another, that other does not suffer much. Again is it 
all for the two that consideration is ? or, is it for, in 
the highest, souls that will or must yet pass this earth- 
ly existence ? How many sons and daughters look to 
their parents and say : " Their love is my model ! 
They have endowed me with many precious pleasures, 
My parents are my models !" 



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Your letters since I returned to the city have cost 
you much, their coldness and their chilly wrappings 
were no less felt by yourself than by me. You -welcome 
right and justice ! introduced them to me, and then 
strove to turn them away by your distrust: or, lack 
of trust in the same light and justice. Inconsistency! 
But such is life. Yet this brought out a soul that was 
hidden; and I am benefited by the extreme tension al- 
most of distress. I have unfolded pages of soul growth 
/ am bettered. Not easily under such pressure have I 
written. At times in broken, fitful sentences; but, un- 
derlying all this, in your soul and mine is the great 
truth. That love, a love that never can be cast away\ We 
may go and we may come, but that goes on forever. 
It was not builded in a moment. An Eternity has so 
wrought. The foundation began when Eternity began. 
It will not end until dies Eternity. A robe of peace or 
a despoiler's shroud. Go back to your texts. 

" Are there chords, — ? " 

" Are there harmonies, — ?" 

These companions of my thoughts, not careless did 
you send them ! 

If my timidity has burst to ebullient words and let- 
ters to you, I have done right ! Of your limited means 
I have not spoken plainly, I know, for that I have no 
fear. Why should / fear anything ? Why shouldjvw ? 
Why should any just and honest person in our state of 
spirit existence ? The silver, the gold, the diamonds 
that are forever growing; the buttercups, the daisies, 
the lilies and roses, we should obtain each and all, by 
making ourselves worthy comfort and luxury; nothing 
is too good to be utilized or enjoyed when in proper 
time, way and place. Wealth is necessary ! I would 
not live where there is no wealth; how could I ? There 
is wealth of nature everywhere ! Wealth of memory, 
where do we see poverty most ? In memory. There it 



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is most to be pitied. Wealth of all that is beautiful is 
obtainable if time is properly used. The wealth of 
youth; enjoyed in manhood; the wealth of early man- 
hood enjoyed in middle life; the wealth of all these in 
old age. Of all the deplorable losses, is the loss of the 
wealth of memory, whose seeds should be garnered in 
youth and early manhood; then indeed he may say 
limited means. O, you are rich ! how can you speak of 
limited means; think less: / must, and more: I have 
done my best; the Godswill aid me now. See the great 
ideal; but do not hourly measure the paths thereto; 
perhaps when you look next time your ideal is so near, 
you hold the breath of your soul in surprise. When 
should a person solve the problem of life ? Before they 
have lived it ! Study, see and prophesy. Study the 
wealth of love and mistake it not for drosses and base 
metals; but know the pure white diamond cut to glisten 
in innumerable radiations; diamonds from the earth's 
bosom, or the diamonds of human purity, wear all that 
is beautiful ! Diamonds of strength of adherence to 
the high principles that will call the Gods to your aid. 
This is my last letter ! For the present I leave all this 
with you — reflect ! 

" Are there chords in the harps of humanity ? 

" Are there harmonies to be guided protected and re- 
vered ? 

"Perhaps listless we pass them by; or, unnoticed and 
unfelt they fall." 

Ever the same, 

Yours very respectfully, 



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San Francisco, Sat. mor., Feb 12, '92 

I folded this last long letter, enclosed it, envelope ad- 
dressed and stamped; — stepped into the hall; the door- 
bell rang! A letter for Miss. . . I opened 

and read the following: — 



-, Thursday Evening, Feb. 10, 1892. 



My Dear Miss : In haste I write to 

say that upon the morning train I depart for New 
York. A few days there, then to Europe, where I 
shall devote the next three years to study. — Excuse bre- 
vity. 

Your Friend, 



And so my last letter I did not mail? 

"Are there chords ? 

Are there harmonies — ?' 



IF WE COULD KNOW ! 

If we could know, — if we could know- 
If we could alway truth bestow 
And not disguise it in a thought 
That's thin and vapory, — unfraught 
With any good but to perplex, — 
Be to the soul a false index; 
Ah, quick! could souls then better grow, 
And we could know, and we could know! 



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If we could know, if we could know! 
Oh, quick would rise the hope that's low, 
The cheek reflect the soulful trust 
That wraps of falsehood shroud in dust. 
If pens could dip in purity 
From minds emitting honesty, 
If undisguised the words could flow — 
And we could know, and we could know! 

If we could know, — if we could know 
The best of souls and let else go; — 
If we could shrive our words, and be 
That which we wish to seem and see; — 
Then could we be just what we seem. 
Untruth be a forgotten theme, — 
And trust could no more ebb and flow — 
And we could know, and we could know. 

Saturday evening, San Francisco, Feb. 12, 1892„ 



CUPID. 

O thou unresting Cupid 

Why seek an occulist; — 
Doest know thy joy? So stupid 

To ope thine eyes! Desist; 
Desist, O learned physician — 

Resist the trembling plea; 
The bleeding prayer — petition! 

O give not misery. 

Yet Cupid moans in anguish — 

And moans he knows not why, 

To see his Love, — to languish — 
Nor dreams to see, to die! 



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The indiscreet elysian 

Displays the glistening lance; — 
Oh Gods! — The mortal vision 

One moment doth entrance — 

One moment breathes— then dizzy — 

One moment more lies dead; 
Quick Cupid — cold then is he — 

Quick sight— but Love hath fled. 
O Gods! O learned physician 

Unlance the bleeding eyes! 
O Gods! Hear the petition — 

Love kills and kills, nor dies. 

Sunday Evening, San Francisco, Feb 13, 1892. 

The letter dated Feb 9, was written as leisure and 
health permitted, at intervals, and finished Friday, 
Feb. 11, at eleven P. M. Monday morning, Feb. 
14, not much surprised, I received this letter. 

On Train, Saturday Morning, Feb. 12, '92. 

My Dear Miss . 

Twenty-four hours of my 
journey have passed. The snow-wrapt mountains cold, 
still and peaceful, have a tendency to make one think 
of scenes that are past, of pleasant association and of 
memories dear. 

Are there chords ? 

Are there harmonies ? 

I think in a former letter you have found these lines. 
Someway I have not been well and almost regret my 
sudden departure. You are coming to New York! Are 
you not rapidly convalescing? and could you not hasten 
your preparation? If so, you could please me very 



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much by addressing me a letter to No. street, 

New York. There I shall await your arrival. You 
know I know how much you desire that your book be 
first published in London; perhaps you can accompany 
me to that city. No doubt the sea voyage would com- 
pletely restore you to health. 

Pardon me for seeming indifference, things are not 
what they seem. I think I understand you, therefore 
I shall expect the letter I request. 

Your friend. 



Did I answer? I did! and my letter must remain his 
secret. I wrote him a longer and a better letter than 
ever before. I admired and I loved him. He, living 
in the hard real, already in possessiou of a superior 
education and energy and determination, in his almost 
beyond human desire to be kind to me, and endow me 
with wealth, and an honest noble love; had suffered a 
world of pain. 

Do pulpits furnish better sermons? Can the powers 
that rule forsake such a nature? No! Was there not 
more true affection in those, apparently cold, friendly 
letters; than in all the gush of the demonstrative and 
thoughtless? 

''He wore the garb, but not the clothes, of the in- 
different." 

And did he sleep that Friday night while I finished 
my letter with his words too tender to be spoken, but 
in low whispers of evening's shadows. 

"Are there chords ? 

Are there harmonies ?" 



Tantalizing moments they flee at length, 



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Chicago, Ills., Sept. 28, 1892. 

His last letter, dated Feb. 12, '92, was written while 
on the way to New York. Did he go there? No! He 
ordered my letter returned to his late home in Califor- 
nia and to that city retraced his steps before reaching 
New York. In my letter I had appealed to him to re- 
turn. I knew success was at his door if he would but 
remain and persevere. I pictured to him the village 
school-house where he had taught school and 
studied law during every spare moment and even while 
teaching he had been admitted to the bar, before his 
school closed he had successfully tried a half dozen 
cases and had been successful where now located; yet 
his high ambition led him even to pass New York's Law 
School and travel abroad to gain a better knowledge, 
to feel himself more competent to stand before that bar 
called Justice and plead where it would seem many 
times that everlasting happiness, of his client, was at 
stake. I appealed to him to return! — Yes! I used all 
my power of thought, that the Gods who rule might in- 
fluence him to return. Might influence him to save 
that time and save that money, which, if he remained 
where he had already a hold upon the hearts of many 
people, would give to him a cottage home of happiness 
— and life would be begun while hope and youth were 
young. Is not Lady Wilde right? I have read that she 
believes that it is the duty of every woman to try to 
make one man happy. Shall I succeed? We shall see! 



This letter is dated- 



Home, California, March 12, 1892. 

My Dear Miss. : 

Your very pleasant letters are 
always gladly received. You may some day understand 



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how welcome these visitors are. I think it is just a month 
since I wrote you last. Can I imagine your surprise 

when you find that I am writing in my office in , 

. My old office! — Will you think you are reading. 



or, dreaming? But someway I incline to think you have 
suspected. More than a week has passed since I re- 
ceived your letter addressed to me to New York. It 
came two days after my return and may I say, my dear 
one that never can anything bring me more pleasure, 
more happiness than this letter. If you could know the 
struggle through which I passed before I could say — 
I will return, I shall succeed; — and after finding myself 
here, how could I tell you of my strange freak. No 
one here knew that I had intended a long absence, no 
person here is surprised at my return. But you, how 
could I tell you? Your letter came in which you ap- 
pealed to me to return, in which you have outlined my 
plans with such accurate precision that I held my breath 
to believe my eyes were not deceiving me. Pardon me 
pardon me — my angel — my angel — my guiding star, 
pardon me;-— if I have taken more than a week to 
study and to know how to appreciate this; what shall I 
say— I could not think;— but I went to work nerved 
with such energy and strength as never before. 

I have driven over the country and found new 
avenues to success on every hand, I am quite certain of 
an engagement with the railroad company and see 
much business pending ahead; besides, when I returned 
I found letters urging my return to my old home in the 
South. 

Yes, my dear, I am certain I can continue as I have 
done, experience and study can accomplish much. If 
I should remain here for sometime yet, perhaps then I 
can return to my dear old southern home, at least I 
can if I choose. 

But you, my dearest, are you quite well again and 



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what news have you for me of yourself ;— for this I 
wait an early reply which I know I shall receive. 

From your more than friend, 



I did not answer this letter until several weeks had 
elapsed; he knew, he must have known, that where ever 
I was and what ever doing— my best thoughts were of 
him. 

I had been stopping in that city of beautiful Cottages 
—Santa Rosa! that quiet city in the center of one of 
the most beautiful counties in all California— with Pe- 
laluma on the South side, Sotoyome on the North, old 
Sonoma East and Sebastopol— boasting of one of 
Balaklava's old soldiers as a citizen— to the West. 
Approaching this city from whatever direction chosen, 
the observing landscape-artist must carry away with him 
a feast of memories. Santa Rosa! So named for the on- 
ly woman South America has ever canonized as Saint. — 
And flowers ! 

O beautiful flowers, 

You come with the showers; 

And many is the tale 

You tell to the dale; 

As you bask in the bowers — 

O beautiful flowers. 

Gay beautiful flowers, 
You brighten the hours, — 
Where e'er you are tented. 
Your perfumes are scented 
Wind wreathing your towers- 
Gay beautiful flowers. 



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Proud elegant flowers 
Your dignity dowers- 
From silver to gold 
And purples you hold, 
While flushed the skyowers — 
Proud elegant flowers. 

O fanciful flowers, 
Your fables ore ours; 
Your faces we read, 
Their history and creed — 
A law that empowers — 
O fanciful flowers. 

O delicate flowers 
So strong are the powers 
Your gentle heads raise. 
From quick fleeting days 
You capture the hours. 
O delicate flowers. 

O soul speaking flowers, 
Your presence devours — 
Cremating and healing, 
Our burdening grief, stealing 
From shadow that cowers; 
O soul speaking flowers. 

O comforting flowers, 
Your charms are all ours. 
And, worshiping o'er you, 
Beneath you, before you, 
We breathe in thy powers; 
O comforting flowers. 

But where was I in my story ? . . . O ! I was 
contemplating my departure from this city when I 



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wrote him. I was brief, merely telling him I had 
been a little depressed because of my continued 
ill health and that until health was restored and my 
book published I could give thought to writing but few 
letters That soon I hoped to be on my way East, and 
would he be pleased to meet me in Sacramento; if so, 
I should arrange to spend a Sunday there that his 
business might enable him to spend a few hours in visit 
with myself and my friend; as I never permit any 
gentlemen to neglect business, to afford me pleasure, no 
matter how great would be that pleasure. And I trusted 
he would not deem it improper if I should ask for a 
photograph. 

Return mail placed under my plate the following 
from him: 



■Calif. Apr. 13, '92. 



My Dear Miss.- 



A long silence I could not understand, I saw 
through a glass darkly. I think I see you more clearly 
or understand you more perfectly. 

Many an evening have I overlooked my mail to find 
your letter, but in vain. I wished to drop you a line, 
but No ! Where should I address ? You had gone ! 
Where ? Perhaps East, perhaps near me, perhaps far 
away. A surprise often is a pleasure. It was in this 
case. I am happy that you are happy; more happy 
that you have better health. 

Do I approve of your silence ? If your convictions 
tell you it is right — a duty to yourself — yes, I agree. 
Why did I remain silent ! Because I must, not because 
I would. There are tides in the affairs of men that 
know no ebb; but circumstances often hide them from 
view. 



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My dear, Yes ! It will be pleasing to me to exchange 
photographs. I have no good ones at present, but will 
send you one as soon as possible; and if you are at Sac- 
ramento at a time when I can leave my business, I 
shall see you there. If I do not see you there, I hope 
to hear from you at times. My dear, I glean from 
your letter that you do not feel at liberty to be your 
true self. When you can enjoy that liberty, please 
write me. 

Your sincere friend, 



How I treasured that letter and carried it for weeks, 
yet I could not see why he could not have said, plain- 
ly: — "Yes, I will see you in Sacramento." I read it 
again and again. I felt certain he could leave his busi- 
ness upon Sunday. I feared if I wrote him he might 
not come. Could I endure the disappointment if he 
did not ? I was yet too ill; I dared not risk a disap- 
pointment; even as it was I kept to my room for several 
days in that city. The earthquakes might have had 
much ill effect upon my nerves; but someway I could 
endure so very little that most everything at that time 
seemed an extra strain upon their disordered tension. 
I remained there during two Sundays but did not write 
him. I spent three days in rich, beautiful, hospitable 
Woodland — said to be the richest city for its size; ex- 
cepting Helena, Montana — in the United States. How- 
ever this may be, it is a lovely, fascinating city, and I 
was made happy, very happy there. 

I felt that I must again seek the coast. By way of 
Stockton, I passed the ashes of the Depot at Lathrop, 
where Judge Terry was so cruelly murdered. The 
Democrats in jocular, jolly mood were returning from 
Fresno's Convention. The Visiting Editors had crowd- 
ed the trains. But my thoughts were of him, my friend, 



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I hoped my more than friend. I had been so near him, 
so near; I counted over and over the miles. San Fran- 
cisco seemed not now, my home. I went to Redwood 
City, San Jose, Santa Cruz. But O, my loneliness ! At 
San Jose I wrote him a short letter about the 24th of 
May. As he had some former time hinted that I would 
meet flatterers and cautiously warned me, with all possi- 
ble kindness, that there were sometimes persons whom 
a young lady traveling should avoid. In this letter I 
told him I found all persons pleasant, agreeable and ex- 
perienced, a growing interest in my travel; I appreciate 
a compliment; I think we all like some praise, espe- 
cially after hard and determined labor to accomplish 
some desired purpose; that no one flattered me. No ! 
Had he ? No ! Nor did any person, on the contrary, 
I find many, many like myself, hardworking students, 
capable of appreciating, but not of flattering. 
He replied: 



Calif. June 12, '92. 
My Dear Miss. 

I'm very sorry you have hoped in vain for a letter 
the past week; but it can not be changed now; I have 
been engaged in an adjoining town over a week and 
did not return to my home here till to-day. 

I received your letter on my return and was very 
much surprised. I had been led to believe you had 
forgotten your friend, I now know you have not. It 
revives old memories and emotions to hear from you. 
I may see you soon if it is your pleasure. I shall be in 
San Francisco in a few days. Now, my dear, it will 
give me great pleasure if you do not do as you did be- 
fore, when I agreed to meet you. You know you never 
set a time. Well, my dear, that is buried and for- 
gotten. 



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I am more than happy because you are being so well 
treated. I know you meet many kind faces and you 
know that it makes us happy when we know that we 
meet ladies and gentlemen. 

My location being so far from the city, although I 
am very busy I am lonely sometimes. Write me here 
and I will give you my address in the city. 

with kindest wishes, 

From your friend, 



It was several days before I received this, — forward- 
ed to me to Hollister. As I had been to other places 
and then was just about ready to start on my journey 
East, I has no plans to return to the city, nor for stop- 
ping anywhere long enough to see him; still I delayed 
a little and tried to make some arrangement that would 
be a success; yet I dared not tell him I could meet 
him, for it seemed at that time impossible. I wrote 
him so; or, rather I am sure I never can tell just what 
I did write. It seemed too much, too much after all I 
had suffered by trying to be brave and strong; that, 
when I could see no way to turn back, this opportunity 
was offered. 

Had I met him then, life never Would have been the 
same again. I should have thought more of him, or 
less. If more, how could I have gone away ? If less, 
could I have endured such a crushing blow just at that 
time ? O, the agony, of a heart that loves ! and still 
the Poet says : " 'Twere better to have loved and lost, 
than never to have loved at all." I felt that I had 
taken the initiative, perhaps, too much. I reflected 
over all that had passed between us, dear reader, just 
as you do, or just as you have done sometime when you 
have loved some person as I have loved him. I know 



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you will excuse me, I know you will excuse each of us, 
we are human with human hopes and affections; I have 
endeavored that these should be the grandest, noblest 
that human soul can give; and so has he, but dear 
reader, you see the purity and yet you see the tremb- 
ling, the quivering, the hoping, the fearing. Why is 
this ? I can only answer because it is this life, and not 
later. Human perfection is not yet attained. 

I think that now I shall pause and send to him for 
the letters which I did not copy. I should like myself 
to know just what I did write when under that terrible 
pressure; therefore au revoir, reader — for, let me see, 
five and five are ten; yes, ten and two are twelve days 
— after twelve days I will give you the letters. Au 
revoir ! Till then, how lonely. Maybe meantime he 
will write to me; if he does, I will tell you every word he 
says. Au revoir ! 



Chicago, Ills., Oct. 22, 1892. 

Since the 28th of Sept., I have waited for my letters 
for which I wrote to arrive. They have not come. I 
do not know why he would not send them to me as 
requested. I can only think him a business man, and 
he does not wish to be so annoyed; well, I almost know 
my surmise this time is correct. I received a beautiful 
and satisfactorry letter from him, of which I shall tell 
you later, which was mailed before he received my re- 
quest for the letters. 

I will now try to remember something of what I wrote 
him at that time when it did seem I never could step upon 
the train that was to carry me away from my State 
and from him. O, cruel love, O cruel, cruel master ! 
It was Sunday evening, at five p. m,, we were seated 
in the car at Oakland pier. But could I start ? No ! 
1 must wait for the next train. Perhaps he might 



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pass. I waited. A dreary waiting! O, those two 
hours ! At seven p m., I must leave him. He was 
somewhere in San Francisco or Oakland. O, could he 
only have passed by. Could I only have seen him one 
half hour ! The train rolled away, away. The Sun 
took the last twilight from my home and my heart; 
the Moorlands of Suisun Bay were ghostly. I must 
turn away from the memory and try to tell you what I 
wrote him. I know I told him I could not plan to 
meet him. I had met him the first time without plan- 
ning and the second time he was on the train which I 
took to return to San Franeisco. The only times we 
have ever met. I did not plan those meetings, I dared 
not after all those months and disappointments, plan to 
meet him. If the Gods so will, we shall meet without 
effort, and that I had tried to take his advice and wait 
until I knew him better. I wrote this immediately as 
soon as I received his letter. Meantime, I was delayed 
two days at San Jose and I wrote again the day I 
started and told him he never could know what my last 
letter cost me, what it takes to turn away and pass by 
on the other side, and that I should stop at Auburn, 
would he write me there ? I was obliged to direct this 
letter to his home inland, as I had not yet his address 
in San Francisco, and when I passed through that city 
I did not know his address there, nor did I expect to 
go that route when I wrote him; but at Auburn I found 
his letter awaiting my call. 



San Francisco, June 27, — '92. 

My Dear Miss : 

You shall receive the letter as re- 
quested. [ would not have you take my advice if it is 
not a part of yourself. You know we are always best 



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pleased with people when they are themselves. I am 
always happiest when I see your true self in your let- 
ters. There is nothing so pleasing as the realty, — truth. 
I shall remain here but a few days, as I must return 
to look after future business. Please excuse this short 
note. I am so sad at the news of your departure. I 
will write more next time. 

Your true friend, 



It was a short letter, true; yet that one line: — 
"You shall receive the letter as requested" — was a 
volume to me; as, I really held on to the office win- 
dow while the postman looked for the letter I think 
I did not have strength to stand alone; so hopeful and 
so fearful, but now I had a letter. A volume in a 
word. I must be content, so on and on I passed, 
taking notes and hurrying on. Nevada city could ea- 
sily detained me; also her neighbor, Grass Valley; but 
my health was better and I must away over the line of 
my beloved state: and, at Reno, Nevada, I awoke in a 
surprisingly cozy room in the north-west corner of the 
Riverside Hotel from which one can look down upon 
the Truckee river, a truly poetical and inspiring place. 
I turned from memory's scroll, you know, yes — you do. 
You know I stepped quicker and softer, I almost listened 
for his voice and sometime turned to fancy him near 
me. At Carson, Nevada "while joy was unconfined" and 
the dance went merrily on, I wrote him a letter — men- 
ially, and slept. Days and weeks wore away. At Og. 
den I wrote a traveler's hasty letter. Inquired if he 
had found any good Photographers in San Francisco 
and which was it to be, Harrison, Cleveland or Weaver! 
Said that I had met with many pleacant people and 



made many agreeable acquaintances whom I should 
always kindly remember; requested that he address me 
at Cheyenne: — 

After my day's work I was too weary to write as I 
desired, and I anticipated the result of my short letter 
and prolonged silence. 

At Cheyenne a letter awaited me; evidently written 
in a restless mood. 



Pacific Ocean House, Santa Cruz. 

Calif., Aug 2, '92. 
My Dear: 

I was so pleased to hear of your interest and 
happiness on your way. It is true we find but few 
whom we wish to call friends. Many are kind and we 
are glad to know them. I think it makes us better men 
and women to meet sometimes people whom we can not 
wholly trust. I know men perhaps as well as most of 
young men do; and I know this, that many who seem 
friends to a young lady would be the first to cause her 
downfall: their motive is purely selfish, heartless. Little 
do they care for the future and happiness of pure and 
innocent young ladies. You meet many such, but I know 
you pass from their influence safely. I often wish I 
could meet you and tell you more about what you little 
suspect. 

My dear, it seems to me wrong that we did not meet 
before you went East; you know it could have been. 
Well, such is life, we meet, we part and are forgotten. 
And we must be content. 

I am enjoying life very much; I remained at San 
Francisco but a few days, returned to my home and 
work and am satisfied with results; for a few days again 
am seekiug rest and am looking after some business 



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here. I have many friends here and my pastime will 
be pleasant. You have hard work but we all have to 
be cheerful; all who say "/ shall" will succeed. 

With kindess regards from a true friend. 
Address to Your true friend, 



Denver, Colorado, Aug. 28, '92. 
My Dear Mr. 

I found yours of Aug. 2d awaiting my arrival at 
Cheyenne, and regret that I have not answered ere 
this, because then I should sooner receive your reply. 

I am afraid I am a little homesick and a letter from 
California is so very, very welcome. 

My dear friend — we meet, we part, but we are not 
dismissed from memory. I meet many who seem kind, 
any person would be very degraded, indeed, who would 
not appear as a gentleman or lady, in presence of one 
whom they have never before met and whom they, per- 
haps, do not expect to meet again. 

I meet authors and am presented with their books. 
These persons and many others I shall always remem- 
ber as friends. Meeting such people is like hearing 
and becoming fascinated with the melody of some new 
tune which is often recurring to our memory and we 
are soon lost in its sweet and tranquil cadences. It is 
music from the chords of humanity. 

From this tour I am happier and am benefited. /En- 
kir and yEnsir have said : " Five advantages thou wilt 
at least procure by traveling. Thou wilt have pleasure 
and profit, thou wilt enlarge thy prospect, cultivate 
thyself and acquire friends !" I have found they were 
right. I have gained all these and in my memory is 
stored a feast of pleasant reflections. 



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I have enjoyed excellent health ever since I came 
up on the mountains in California, the high altitude 
has eradicated, I trust, the malaria from my system. 
I can walk many miles a day without tiring, and my 
cheeks are rosy all the time; yet I long for my Cali- 
fornia. Will you please write to me at Grand Island, 
Neb. I think I shall stop there; yet I scarcely know 
upon what route I shall proceed. 

Now, my dear friend, I must bid you good-bye. When 
I am settled somewhere, I will try to make my letters 
more interesting to you. 

Yours sincerely 



I was a little depressed by his last letter; yet I tried 
to not admit to myself that I was. 

I stopped at the new Brownstone Palace, and one 
morning I chanced to look over the lists of Hotel ar- 
rivals, when I saw that at the Hotel, just over the way 
was registered Miss Stella Standish, California. 
O, joy to my homesick heart, I will call at once; 
A Californian ! 

I was not long in putting my resolution into execu- 
tion. She was in and received me. She is a young 
lady near my own age and had, I learned, spent a some- 
what similar life; more strange, she too, was on her way 
East for the same purpose, and yet we had not met be- 
fore. She had been to .very many of the same places, 
knew quite a number of people with whom I was ac- 
quainted; knew me well by reputation; but someway, 
although her name was familiar to me I had been too 
busy, and during the last year nearly, perhaps I might 
honestly say, too much engaged with this new thought 
of love, to remember, if I had really heard of her. Per- 
haps it was a weakness, a very great weakness; yet I 



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could not resist the temptation, I told her all; and let 
her read my letters now in manuscript form. She 
seemed to have no clue as to who the gentleman is, and 
I did not inform her; we were firm friends. I trusted 
her even more than she seemed inclined to trust me. 
She is reticent, cautious, reserved. I think I can trust 
her as I never have trusted any lady, and be strengthened 
by that trust. 

She is accompanied by a chaperone who is as careful 
and watchful of her as mine is of me. Sad it seemed 
we all had mountain fever, in Denver, so hastened 
away, traveling together to Burton, Kansas; there I 
left her to go to the Hot Springs, which I had heard 
were somewhere on the Ozark Mountains, in Arkansas. 
Our arrangement for meeting again was unsatisfactory 
to each, yet we knew we should meet. 

She was to stop in Kansas City and Chicago. I did 
not remain but a little more than a week in Arkansas, 
went direct to Chicago, stopped at the Richelieu. One 
morning I was out for a drive on Michigan Boulevard. 
When I was certain I passed Miss Standish. It was a 
chilly morning and we were each in a closed hansom. 
I was certain she was going to the World's Fair Grounds 
when I arrived there, I waited a full half hour and 
watched for her; there were too many ways, and so I 
did not see her, but I knew she was in Chicago. As 
we drove back, I called at the Auditorium and made 
inquiry, found she was there, and at once called upon 
her. I decided to go on to New York soon after the 
Dedication of the World's Fair Grounds. I shall never 
publish these letters, how could I ? I wish I had the 
courage; but no, I have not, I think I have fully de- 
cided that when near a year has elapsed since the day 
I met my first real lover, and since I first learned what 
real love is — and know how fitful intelligent persons 
can be when they truly love each other; how ennobling 



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with all and godlike a true soul can be. I — yes; I have 
decided that when I have compiled these letters and 
thoughts of a twelve-month. I shall give them to Miss 
Standish, giving her an unreserved right to publish 
them; or, do with them as she will. They are copied 
in my heart, they have led my soul almost beyond the 
human in purity and love. 
But I must return to them. 



SOMETIME. 
Denver, Col., Sept. 3. '92. 

My Dear : Somehow I feel to-night 

Like taking up my pen 
In angle holding thought invite, 

Let words drip now and then. 
But five days since I wrote you last, 

It reached you just to-day, 
And over all the sad, sweet past 

My mem'ry is at play. 

And was it wrong that we should part 

Without one meeting, one, 
You know it crushed my very heart, 

You know why this was done. 
You know how forcibly it tried 

To find communion free; 
And, then I turned my soul and cried- 

Ye Gods, I look to thee. 

I gave myself up to their care — 

'Twas all I knew to do, 
For, could I trust my soul elsewhere 

If not, my dear, with you ! 



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And like to life with spirit fled 

I struggled for a space; 
As senseless as that dying dead, 

But sought for spirit grace. 

And thus I'll try to live The Days, 

Nor let thy mem'ry rust; 
They'll lead me, though in hidden ways, 

Yet follow them — I must ! 
Sometime, perhaps, my path will turn 

Toward thy way — Why sad ? 
Sometime will Occult powers stern 

Yield light — and we be glad. 



Chicago, Ills., Sept. 20, '92. 

My Dear Mr. 

I write to you to-day merely to say that I shall 
write you a long letter as soon as I can possibly find 
time. 

By going to Denver I changed my route, and may 
not receive your letter from Grand Island, Nebraska. 
O, my dear one ! If you only knew me better there 
would be many a letter dropped in the mail-car as it 
passes your little city. 

I am lonely and homesick, and have not yet recovered 
from mountain fever. 

Do you think Chicago as good a place from which 
to send out a book as New York ? Perhaps it is going 
away from you so far that makes the trip seem long. 
Excuse brevity. I must close. 

Ever the same, 

Your true friend, 



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Chicago, Ills., Sept. 26, 1892. 

My Dear Mr. 

Can it be that after many months of contem- 
plating, many months of delaying, that now with a 
hope of good result to long supressed feelings and 
words; that I venture to what is, or will be by yourself 
understood as transgressing the borders of what is 
usually considered a young lady's prerogative, and com- 
positively place myself before you, there to be adjudged 
despite all effort of words, perhaps still wrongly. 

I think I have not written you one sentence beneath 
which there was not a deep meaning held, a something 
which if interpreted to each would have made, or have 
had a tendency to make each of us better and happier. 

There is a feeling I am certain quite prevalent that 
from letter writing there is too often unpleasantries aris- 
ing rather than that ennobling influence that radiates to 
glow the hearts of even others than those directly con- 
cerned. 

Why can not letter writing — the effusions of our so- 
litary meditations, wherein no weak capriciousness 
should be involved, but the real delights of the human 
heart in its ideals of high morality, virtue and perfec- 
tion; here must there be frailties in nature to alienate 
from open hearted communion and the charm^ts of vir- 
tue and the joys of friendship; be the means of attaining 
the highest social happiness, the highest home hap- 
piness, the highest heart or soul happiness? Why must 
so often arise in my mind the illustration in Paul du 
Chaillu's Travels in Africa, when the Chimpanzee sudden- 
ly encounters Paul; that* animal beats his breast and 
jlbars with anguish of fear. Why? because he meets su. 
perior intelligence, and his deep innate nature tells him 
of fear. Why must intelligence fear intelligence? O 
the thousand and one reasons, and we sometimes seek 



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the very relief the Chimpanzee seeks, when with his 
anguish the forests ring; except that we burst the very 
hope powers within, and for a time are lifeless, dead. 
Why not contemplate for a time the remedies which 
counteract these parasites of happiness. 

Last Spring I looked into the fast coming months. I 
saw, I felt, I moaned when comtemplating that which 
they held for us, and over two of your letters you know 
how I struggled, like muscular action when spirit has 
fled, perhaps as senseless; and then I tried to be the 
stolid stoic they demanded. 

You thought me light and changeable, and that 1 
would not feel their lethal weight. We often pause and 
hesitate, debating whether this occasion is the proper 
time for exercise; not certain how far that exercise 
should be carried, and doubting if the object may not 
be a mistaken one. A hundred difficulties obtruding 
and we think we are too impressible, and gather up 
our immediate environments to aid in a wise decision. 
But O, can we not look a little deeper down and back 
on the grand boulevards over which we have passed 
and see wherewith they have been clothed; what ways 
are familiar. Are you but on the corduroys of the 
jungle, and I on the paved boulevards or vice versa ? 
Have we had similar experiences ? Are our ways now 
pari passu and mooth, is the texture and fiber of thought 
akin? Who said I should care for you or you for me, 
ah, now answer if you can. Dare you say that you de- 
liberately said "I will seek that young lady, yes, I will 
seek her friendship and her love?" No! You can not 
say you said this; but almost unaware you found your- 
self doing this, and every effort to turn away you were 
bound tighter by the hold. This is the result of law, 
law that must be obeyed, or penalty is demanded. 
Now why this law? O, the volume in the answer! But 
to abreviate; it is simply that you and I have lived 



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similar lives, passed similar experiences, attained si- 
milar heights, have yet similar weaknesses and struggles 
and there is no going away from this. We have met 
and we cannot forget. If you wish to, you must suffer 
the result of breaking a law of Nature's true and un- 
mistakable ways. If I wish to turn from you, I must, 
still carry the burden of a broken law. Turn away 
if you will; here is a truth. You never can forget me, 
never, and you never can be as happy, I do not say this 
to hold you. But I do say it because it is my duty to 
you and myself; and then /have done all I could; and I 
will not have to suffer as much as if I had not done 
all my duty demands. If you choose to work with me 
and for me and I the same, there will be no unremov- 
able barriers to a reasonable amount of happiness. You 
can look back the few months and see what happiness 
might have been had we so done. I have my work 
and you have yours; yet there could have been, and 
can be yet, that freedom of understanding — that 
working tegether — if you choose, that will result in 
ever present happiness as well as pave to the future. 

I remember to have said in one of my letters that 
there are volumes waiting and so there are. I wish 
you knew me better. 

I am not trying to make you have confidence in me. 
I wish you to see me as I am, nothing more. I have 
been depressed, deeply depressed, because I have seen 
how far and foreign your thought of me has been from 
correct; especially depressing was your last letter, yet it 
was from a more than friend's heart, it was brotherly, 
more, it was from you. It was nobleness that prompted 
such advice and such hints; that unmistakable noble- 
ness I saw in you at first when I read you. I have 
trusted you as those hints indicate I safely might. I 
have never been mistaken in you, nor given you more 
praise than is your due. But you have feared I might 



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so read others, — have I? No no, I have had my work 
and have done that work straight, steady, always ex- 
cusing myself from others, and passing on, caring for 
nothing but ultimate success. 

I have met noble characters enough in my life to 
contemplate upon a high ideal of association, if I ever 
have a home in which to invite such, and shall be as 
steadily and hopefully working for that quiet home, as 
though I knew I should succeed. I am not easily di- 
verted, you must have observed, from a fixed hope; else 
you might have driven me away long ago. It would 
seem almost that this letter contains sufficient to prove 
to you my constancy! I will say no more, except this 
one question. Is it kind of you to not permit 
me to have a photograph? some times I have thought it 
quite unkind. 

How you have drawn me near and held me away. 

Trusting this will have a tendency to make each 
of us happier — I enclose it — not in icy wrappings; but 
with the warmth of a true appreciative affection, and 
in the care of the Gods who guide us, it leaves one, who 
is yours. 



Calif. Oct. 2, '92. 

My Dear Miss : 

Yours dated at Chicago, just received. It gives 
me great pleasure, always, to hear from you. It is be- 
cause many of our thoughts are in common, because, 
as you have said, " Our lives seem to have been simil- 
ar," and struggle to attain our ideal on the same path- 
way, our ideal to attain the formost rank in our profes- 
sions. Though our professions lead us somewhat dif- 
ferently — yours to literature, mine to law, — we are both 
striving for humanity, for humanity's sake. Yet, why 



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complain ? All successes call for our utmost efforts. 
The result of to-day adds to the power of to-morrow, 
the power and success of to-morrow depend on the am- 
bition and energy of to-day. We work, we strive, we 
hope, we endure, we reap our reward. 

My dear, I realize, I think, fully, how much you have 
sacrificed, and denied yourself by going East as you 
did. You could not do otherwise; I could not; hence it 
was, I suppose for our good. I think you understand 
the implied meaning of every line I have written, you 
have filled out the sentences, which I have only out- 
lined. You have understood me in full. I think I have 
done likewise with each of your letters. I have care- 
fully analyzed each thought, each word, and I think I 
understand you. 

I understand and appreciate this letter more than 
those of the past. Could I do what I would, I should 
be happier, you should be happier. The fates that rule 
our destinies, sometimes seem cruel — yet it may be 
kindness in disguise. My dear, do not ask me to say 
more now, I must not. Do my letters depress you ? I 
am more than sorry, because I wish to make all happy, 
yet, sometimes I fail. 

I am glad you have progressed so nicely with your 
book, and hope to see it in print soon. I believe Chi- 
cago will be as good a publishing place as New York. 
It will take much energy to start it properly from either 
place. How do you like the East ? I shall send you a 
photo as soon as I can get a good one. I shall go to 
the city in a few days and have them prepared. 

Now that you are settled for a time can you not write 
to me often ? I need not tell how much I am interested 
in you, you know already. 

I shall look for a letter soon. 



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In truest friendship, from your wellwisher and true 
friend, 



UNHIDDEN. 

Oct. 1892. 
Still yet thy look steals o'er me, dearest, 

Thy last fond look before we parted, 
Unspoken words lie closest, nearest — 

In memory of the true hearted. 

Still in thy eyes I see unhidden — 

And quivering lips that held love's telling— 
A heart's deep love, though yet forbidden; 

Thou canst not bind love's tender welling. 

With pulsing rush, and chords unbroken 
And sighing breath, and soulfulness; 

From heart to heart its quickening token 
Is born in passion's tenderness. 

Is born in tenderness of passion, 

And like a stealing, phantom vision — 

Unheeding fear, or hope, or fashion, 
Enfolds unmindful, sweet elysian ! 

Sweet elysian, soul uplifting, — 
Uplifting shadowless; — and even 

O, dearest; love is breathing, drifting 
Eternized spheres in highest heaven. 

Eternized spheres of the Eternal, 
The spanning measure of love's hours — 

With waiting wants of the Infernal — 

Else falls; when tasting not love's powers. 



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Chicago, Ills., Oct. 16, '92. 

My Dear Mr. 

Your letter, dated Oct. 2d, arrived in due time, 
which was on Thursday morning, the Gth; having been 
the shortest possible time on its long journey. 

I can only measure the miles now, by days; once I 
could afford to count the distance between us; pain- 
fully so, too, sometimes. 

From Woodland, Sacramento, and you so near; when 
I read your reply to my Sacramento suggestion, I in- 
terpreted, and knew my destiny. Yes, I sometimes 
think I can too well read outlining, too well; but again 
sometimes the network can be too intricate, even for 
any percept, or concept; and there may linger an ap- 
prehension that maketh ever the heart weary, uncertain 
and sad. I can not more deeply define my meaning, 
you would not wish me too, nor would you in the least 
explain if I did; and perhaps I should not intimate my 
surmise; yet were it explained, much would be clearer 
to you, at least — perhaps not to me. But, no; I must 
not, cannot know. You say, why complain ? I do not, 
I shall not, why should I ? Do I not know there are 
powers ruling? I do not denominate these as Fates. I 
would not wish to thwart their purpose; resistance is 
useless, and more, is wrong, when the command is in 
the positive; desist, make not life harder! 

You know I have had no choice in anything concern- 
ing this, nearly one year's events in our acquaintance- 
ship; I think I am past that trying hour, almost, when 
I would think of asking, suggesting; — merely accepting. 
Do not mistake me, I am not complaining of you; I 
can not, I see no reason why I should; so please do 
not construe any thought into the least appearance of 
complaint of your course; you know I am too generous, 



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and more, I am too just to blame you or myself. I 
know and see the forbidden ground upon which I must 
not tread; but from which, or upon which I may some 
day be liberated. I think in all the world, there is not 
an hypnotic power that could affect me; I could not 
be sufficiently passive; but here is a power against 
which I have been helpless. And you are right, it is 
for our development. I often think — and have asked 
my dear watchful chaperon — does every young lady 
pass so many hard and such trying experiences as I ? 
Her reply is that I have a better developed and more 
positive character than others as my reward. When I 
had been some time in the Grand Hotel at Santa Rosa 
a young man inquired of the hostess if I was a man- 
hater; as, he added, she never looks to the right or left 
and seems as if she were afraid she would accidentally 
see a man. His question, when related to me, hurt me. 
I did not wish, for humanity's sake, to carry such a 
look. I think from this remark you can somewhat see 
how I have passed by the small portion of the world's 
people on my way. Chicago seems not as pleasant to 
me as San Francisco. California is more to me, yet 
perhaps I may wander much, as my dream of visiting 
the balmy South, I hope to realize. I am so very glad 
that you can see I do not treat others as I did you. It 
has hurt me to have you intimate such a possibility; 
yet I knew you would think so, having anticipated; al- 
most at first I tried to make you understand. I am 
alone very much, yet since traveling, I do not feel 
quite as much so, as I think a few more persons, more 
clearly understand me than I expected to meet; this is 
to me indeed a great, a deep satisfaction. In that 
great development that leads to the OM, the One 
Spirit to which all must return, each stands alone, ab- 
solutely alone. I think, in the succession of lives, it is 
always during that period of activity when we are un- 



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dergoing just what you and I are at present under- 
going, that most development occurs. 

In no other way, and in no other trial, is it, or can 
it be possible for any spirit clothed in mortal house 
so to develop as when honestly suffering the apparently 
cruel master, Love. 

Where is there purer love than I have given you; ask 
and answer yourself the same question; then be true to 
yourself and you will be reons in advance of where you 
were ere the meeting from whence sprang this twelve- 
month correspondence. 

Time forbids more now, and may I expect a letter 
soon? 

Yours sincerely, 



Calif. Oct. 28, '92. 

My Dear Miss. 

You closed your letter by saying: and 
may I expect a letter soon? 

My dear, I can not refuse what you request and 
what gives me the greatest of pleasure. 

Miles are between us, yet our thoughts are together, 
we think and realize much of the same; our idealizations 
seem to inspire one the other, as you have said, much 
is in common in our lives because we have lived under 
similar influences, and our faculties are developing in 
the same cycle. We are to-day and in this age out. 
lining and building for future realization. 

It ofttimes pains me much to see such numbers of 



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this humanistic race, oblivious to all that thought, 
action and truth, which makes life worth the living. 

How many of us live without a purpose. You see 
them each day; I see them. We pass them by; they fol- 
low but fall in the misty past. 

They never taste of the true pleasures in life; they 
bask not in the true sunlight of happiness and true 
love. Love, to them, is a misnomer, a thing not known 
by its true nomenclature. They are brought into exis- 
tence, they exist, then pass — "Beneath the low green 
tent whose curtain never outward swings." 

Let us stretch the hand of memory forth. Have 
our lives been the same as others? Have our dreams 
been dreamed before? Have our ideals been idealized 
ere we acted? If so, they are still new to us. 

I hope time will guide us with a true hand ever on- 
ward, onward till we are crowned with our life's noblest 
realization. 

My dear, you have earned a better lot than yours. 
Your work is very hard. You have proven woman's 
truest virtue, you will attain her highest and greatest 
realization. 

Be cheerful in your work, you have done what few 
women could have done. You shall reap a rich reward, 
you shall be happy. Earnest endeavors realize com- 
plete success; complete success promotes true hap- 
piness and love. 

With kindest wishes, 

Your true friend, 



Chicago, Ills., November 7, '92. 



My Dear Mr:- 



Your welcome letter was received last Wednes- 
day morning, and now 'tis Monday; Sunday is past, our 
day of rest and" relaxed tension experienced upon 
waking to know that this, is Sunday morning. I some- 
times fancy that even the eyes of the animals look 
brighter and sparkle more with soulful felicity; and al- 
most joy with us upon our blessed Sunday morning. 

While the day advances and muscles rest, it is then 
that thought feeds most. Thus our week comes on, 
and — "As prosy as going to work upon Monday 
morning" — should be a fallacy. 

Yesterday it seemed almost that old grey Tom, my 
daily visitor, — he comes up through the back halls and 
stairways, says; "Meow, meow!" at my door, nor can he 
be induced to enter another, — played even more lan- 
guidly, and in his eyes a more wistful look, told deep- 
er thought than other days. Dear old Tom, his is a 
sleek and shiny coat now since he makes these visits. 
Nothing is that does not appreciate and grasp at cul- 
tivation, urged, but not forced. Here, almost a stranger, 
I have at least one friend by whom I shall be missed 
when I shall have gone to follow on in the path of my 
day-dreamings. My good, grey Tom! 

Well! My dear one, many thoughts are always 
left unwritten. I will now try to catch up some that 
have fallen by the wayside. Want of time often com- 
pels a sudden termination to letters; it was so my last 
one was finished and rushed away to you. You say: 
can I not write often? I am crowded with work, but 
shall try to do my best in this. I lived a Summer upon 
that one line in your letter to Auburn, " You shall have 



the letter as requested," and your two last letters are 
a world to me; yes, from one from whom I could ask 
and receive instruction; and feel that pride which shel- 
ters and must receive shelter beneath the canopy of su- 
perior education, or soon the tide of love is changed. 
Yes pride, were I not proud to even think of you, it were 
different. My dear, I am proud, I am very proud of you- 
And your good judgment, I know what it costs you to 
exercise such judgment even though your spirit has 
been so cultivated. Do not feel badly because of 
limited means; you will accumulate; by and by you 
will know all has been well. One day Time will un- 
fold, and his arms that, as you say, seem cold and cruel 
now, will be warm and loving, and we will understand. 
Please let the above remarks be a comfort to you; even 
the diamond is trimmed for added beauty. 

Sometimes when I go back to the physiology of 
human existence, and realize the wisdom there, I prom- 
ise to always appreciate and never depreciate oppor- 
tunities. I see how they can shed off the animal soul, 
build up the human soul, and live in the richness of 
the spiritual soul, that lives since Eternity rolled. When 
we no more need the human soul, we no more need this 
human life; yet long this trinity must continue. Tri- 
umphant spirit, going, coming, and of its return, how 
diversified are opinions; some believe it to return to a 
human home when the first breath is given; all know 
it departs, when the last breath departs; others, more 
nearly allied to science, believe the spirit to be first 
essential before development of human form can begin; 
while a vast and mighty number believe that spirit 
returns when human motion begins ill the electrical shock 
that sets the human form or machinery in motion and 
departs when the last quiver ceases. Yet does it mat- 
ter so much at what time; we know it returns, bringing 
its accumulation of Eternity. Through another span 



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of human life it develops as is aided, thus until assim- 
ulation needs not to work must the spiritual soul return. 
O, beautiful law of evolution ! Why not contemplate ? 

" There are chords in the harps of humanity ! " 
There are harmonies ! 

There are parallels ! 

Why not contemplate ! 

Can a spirit fall from where it has — not seemingly — 
but really, evolved ? Can a spirit that has occupied a 
graceful, return to occupy an angular form? Would 
it? Not if true evolvement had been. Would a spirit 
as yours ever occupy an ungentlemanly home ? I must 
incline to the opinion that such spirits are far beyond 
retrograding; and safely can a young lady always trust 
such a gentleman. 

Did I know you ? You see now why I thought I 
knew you. Had I been mistaken in you, psychology 
would then to my positive satisfaction, have been proved 
a fallacy indeed. Little has the young lady, or young 
man, to fear, if they have so studied, when he or she 
finds love enchained. Study the quality of the blood 
as it manifests, in its multitudinous ways, every feature 
and expression, form and contour, motion and repose; 
when we feel that we are a subject for study, then will 
we endeavor to elevate ourselves, in our own estima- 
tion, and beneficially so to mankind ; and thus grow into 
symmetry and balance. Everything has a tendency to 
accumulate of its kind. Let not unhappiness accumu 
late. 

An advanced and noble young man might think to 
marry, cultivate and educate a young and inexperienced 
lady, hoping that she, one clay, by his aid and efforts 
could become his ideal. Does he succeed ? Ah, that 



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is a question ! Has she attained to his standard of 
nobleness ? No ! else she would have been capable of 
that which he desires her to become, and would have 
been now as advanced as he desires she should be. 
While he waits for her to grow, she holds him back; he 
is fettered and en vironed by her selfishnesses and whims 
that are and must be, as yet, unlaid aside; and himself, 
with the great numbers of others he would have been 
unavoidably benefiting, are held back, and the loss to 
humanity immeasurable. 

It may occur to you that this rule works both ways; 
while I repeat — seek parallels. 

Not too many are like the boy Hal, thoughtfully un- 
mindful of unpleasantries, and unwilling to be fet- 
tered. 

Bob and Hal were successfully flying their kites, 
when Bob made some remark that would have angered 
Hal. Says Hal: " Bob, I'd be awful angry with you, 
but I have'nt got time, 'cause you see, while I'd be 
thinkin 'bout it — our kite strings might get tangled, or 
we might let 'em get loose, an' all our good fun gone 
to the dogs. You see Bob, I never thought 'bout 
getin' angry, can't 'ford it, aint got time. O, see Bob, 
your kite's higher 'en mine ! But I've a heap more 
string, 'cause t'other time when you thought you was 
angry at me, an' didn't work, an' said mean things, I 
never minded, but just kept right on huntin' up 
strings." 

How few like Hal have no time to be hindered; but 
diligently seek the ball of success, that ihey may al- 
ways have reserved force at hand, therefore are not 
jealous when another's success seems greater than 
theirs. 

It must take the strength of upward growth for 
ages to acquire a spirit as Hal's. 



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The charms and dangers of passion. Ah, these arc 
the keys to the great Soul of the universe! 

Hot from the furnace of sorrow 
To be molded as metals, are men; 

Pressed in the clamp, and to-morrow — 
Be what ye would never have been. 

To grieve if a soul is unhappy 

Is to make it happier — soon — 
And its shadows, so mortally trappy — 

Unveil as a zenith's bright noon. 

Disrobe it of sordid surroundings, 
Evolving dark dust to bright grain; 

Quick action, deep fathoming soundings, 
O soul ! Thou art happy again ! 



My dear, it has seemed to please you much that I 
have written so openheartedly of late. 

Had we desired really to be friends, we would, I 
think, have met with a little less difficulty in attaining 
that height in acquaintanceship where misunderstand- 
ings are not. But, no ! we were lovers ! And each 
lacking just a little in this knowledge of which I have 
been speaking. 

Therefore, time and trial sought to prove if there 
were attributes that would stand test. 

Now, more than two thousand miles apart, we know. 
There are harmonies to be guided, protected and 
revered. 

Not listless do we pass them by, nor unheeded and 
unfelt, do they fall 



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And the photograph ! Have you been, or shall you 
go to the city purposely for that ? 

I did flatter myself that I should find a photo in the 
Post Office at Cheyenne, Wyoming. It would have been 
a great pleasure to me, and been my traveling compan- 
ion in its neat little frame; I should have kissed the dust 
from it every day, and the eyes of no other person 
should have looked upon it. 

My dear, this last hour it seems that I have been 
standing behind where you are sitting, with arm around 
and hand upon your forehead; once or twice I have 
drawn your head back and looked down into your eyes. 
I tried to be so gentle you would not know, when 
once I raised my hand just a little and upon your fore- 
head placed a kiss. More of the time, still standing 
behind you, with my right hand falling over your 
shoulder, your eyes and mine in sidewise glance upon 
the floor, has the passing hour let me thus talk to you. 

My dear one, another kiss and I am gone to read your 
last two letters once every day until I receive your 
next, which will afford me a pleasure I trust you may 
early incur, 

" Are there chords ? 

Are there harmonies ?" 



Your true friend, 



From the highlands of nature, the still and sparkling 
springs lead to the placid streams, yet beyond are the 
cataracts, and the troubled estuary. Do we look be- 
yond, oi-, follow down the rugged ways ? We enjoy 
with intensity. Then turn to other of nature's work; 



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look back upon the cataracts, but to admire; while the 
estuaries we sail around in pleasure yachts,scarce know- 
ing they exist. And the great Ocean of life bears us 
on to other days, other lands, and on, and on, to other 
lives. Should we accept the lives of Samuel Johnson ? 
" Most helpless man in ignorance sedate 
Rolls darkling down the torrent of his fate." 
Is man so helpless ? If so be that he fetters himself! 
Were I a Mrs. Julia Ward Howe, I might continue in 
sermon style. But, happy thought, if I continue to copy 
my love letters, perhaps some one, one day, may offer 
me a few thousand dollars, for one of them, as did Rob- 
ert Bonner, Mr. and Mrs. Henry Ward Beecher. If so, 
unlike Mrs. Beecher, I probably shall accept the offer. 
At all events would not the tinge and pallidness of 
sorrow rise less in many a mother's cheek, if every 
young lady, and every young man, should endeavor to 
reach a supreme climax of perfection in love-letter writ- 
ing. An infant seed, to a veteran growth, that never 
dies, never surrenders. And upon whose pages are 
folded in a stimulus to upward growth not too often 
found upon historical pages, even from the Plantage- 
nets to Queen Anne. To weigh, and to measure by 
swing, as the locust branch ever in waftage. Write 
ones best, and, being best, preserve it. 

Quick steps blow the servant in grey; 
My dream said: " Sure, a letter to-day." 



Calif., Dec. 10, 1892. 

To my dearest: 

To-day I am able to be up after being quite sick, 
and am able to again think, and write you a note in 
place of the letter for which you have so long waited. 



—94— 

Your letter has given me very great pleasure. I can 
not express what moments of joy came with it. Let 
imagination build the picture, that its outlines may be 
faultless, and its tints of delicate hue. I often say, 
why can not fancy's creation be photographed and 
carried by vibrations of ether to the gallery of Nature's 
Ideals. Then could we stand side by side, our hearts 
tuned by that well ordered law, admire, be charmed, 
and be lovers. Let us but look and see the beauties of 
harmonies that are cherished. Let us hear the music 
of souls that reflect the beauties and charms of noble- 
ness. Here are deep hidden treasures which alone can 
be revealed by the great teacher, Nature; and alone 
comprehended by those who possess the golden keys 
that open the portals to our true self, our soul, our 
being. 

It is a source of great comfort and lasting inspiration 
to have sympathetic friends appreciate thoughts penned 
from the dictates of our inmost soul, the sentiment we 
try to breathe and make a part of our true self. 

As we are, we reflect images always true; I do not 
say I am worthy of what I write, but somehow through 
my conscious being I feel a high ideal inspiring, 
leading and drawing me to noble thoughts,consummating 
in higher and purer characteristics which I hope will de- 
velop into a character worthy to be called a true man. 
He who can feel and act may hope for new realizations. 
Our "Savior" is strength of character forever to do 
and will to succeed. What we tuill, we are. 

Our ideal should be honesty, our purpose the agran- 
dizement of ourselves to achieve success for the ennoble- 
ment of the human race. Our purpose to do, our action 
in doing, our success in succeeding, and peace in a duty 
— well done, are our heaven of truth, of justice, of ideals. 
Noble ideals produce virtues, moulding our character in 
the clay of nobleness, leading toward the perfect, co n . 



—95— 

summating in God-like conceptions of the real — the true 
soul and self of our being. My dear, I wish your vision 
of my presence were real, my enjoyment would be as 
great as yours. The tender caress of one who loves is 
worth worlds of words penned by the aid of the imagin- 
ation, being guided by hidden emotions. 

I know Chicago well. It seems my home and you 
seem nearer to me while there. Yet how far! How 
painful that word "distanced!" It sinks deep in the 
hearts of lovers, while none but these can feel its pangs. 
As we weave the warp and woof of our being, life makes 
another evolution, receiving the smiles raised from the 
seeds of our ideals. We can be our ideals. The real 
shall not mar, detract from, nor obscure the sunshine of 
true love. By it we live and have our being, developing 
into more perfect manhood, or womanhood, guided by 
Truth and Virtue. My dear, I hope this may find you 
happy, — I should be sad to see you unhappy — and en- 
joying the ice-bound city — Gem of the Lakes. 

Good-bye for this time; with regards to your friend 
and kindest wishes for my dear friend. 

Your true friend. 



Louisville, Oct. 25, 18U3. 

Love, O love of the ages dying, 

Love, O love of the new born morn ; 

Love, warm from lips that are scarce cold, lying 
Pure as their spirit heavenward born ; 

And sweeter than all things else to know — 

Tell me, O why do I love you so? 



—96— 

Lulling my slumber in sweetest of dreaming, 

Quick'ning the pulsing, and painting the cheek. 

What, Encyclopedia ! You tell the meaning; — 
Not in thy language doth love ever speak. 

Its ink is the heart's blood, the eye is its voice — 

Its pen Cupid winged. — O love, I rejoice ! 



So truly you steal where the heart has forbidden, 
A king in your robe, a sceptre to leave ; 

Becomingly, frankly, tender, unhidden ; 

O whispering echo, what fabric to weave ; 

O loom of the life threads, what come ye to say; — 

Shall I love, and in loving, shall life go its way ? 



Why did I write ? Why should a person write any- 
thing ? The very best guide, it seems to me, most 
times, is to write because you have something to 
say; and you feel, almost, that your very flesh and 
bones would depart from you, if you remained silent; 
then analyze the why of these forcing thoughts; 
and if there are to be found no seeds of malice, or 
that worse, and should be passe thing, jealousy inmixed, 
but, a juxtaposition of thoughts which shall unite to 
uplift atomic particles — of, it matters not what nature 
or condition — then write ! Never fearing for the an- 
ulosed condition of the thread of your life. And 
never look backward — Lot's wife like — to crystallize. 

If this is not obeying the over Dictators, Guides, 
Masters, Gods; then it is as nearly doing so, as your 
present self-consciousness permits. And is evolving 
that same self-consciousness rapidly toward that con- 
sciousness of which there is no evolution. Thou, 
most Holy One. 



—97— 

And this last letter, O, the pain of the hour of the first 
reading; — Who could receive a letter displaying a char- 
acter more nearly perfected. Yet I could have torn it 
into shreds, and let the playing flames of the warm 
open grate ashen the bitter ink. Could I but gathered 
up one page, that would have told me how and why 
he was ill! 'Twas a test, a test that proved me human. 
I had almost believed I could love his spirit and be 
satisfied. But, No! No, the human soul asserts. I was 
not brave enough to write and wait for answer. Win- 
ter was coming again. Could I repeat the last winter's 
experience; or, ask why the elvsian threatening? O — 
could love but he buried for a time! From sea to sea 
is there no hiding place for this ethel power? . On 
Trinidad's minaret rocks, can not the rolling wave and 
wreathing spray bind it there? No! Transcribed up- 
on the sand cannot peaceful San Diego keep it there? 
No! Black Hills of Wyoming or, desert of Arizona, 
have these no secret caves? No! The mammoth cave 
refused to hold it for a night, and all day long did the 
good guide try to tangle with the stallactites my bur- 
den and keep it there, but no! In the waters of the 
Allegheny, and Monongehela, in their never ceasing 
journey to the gulf, not there; At-Naples-on-the-gulf, 
in the roar of Niagara, no! 



IMPLORING. 
Pittsburg, May 13, 1893. 

You stars deep set in blue, 
Can love die hid with you ? 

O tell me ! 
Love's wound can never kill- 
If it be living still 

Dispel me 



—98— 

Sometime ! I reason why 
Falls tear dews from thy sky 

On clover. 
Loves held in starry keep, 
And eyes that cannot weep, 

Watch over. 
Watch over, O I pray, 
In round, and round alway 

Restoring 
My dream. A love may be 
This same night, stars, to thee- 

Imploring. 
'Tis not, — 'tis not alone, 
That goes to thee my moan 

Unweeping. 

Loves, — loves that can not die 
Look ever to thy sky 
For keeping. 



CHIDE NOT THE STAR. 

Baltimore, Md., June 10th, 1893. 

No other love can ever hold, 
But of the strength by poets told; 
And growing as the world grows old, 
What lesser love could win me ? 

The sweetest flowers love to tell 
The secrets of the hidden well, 
Where Cupid's piercing arrows fell. 

What then if they betray me ? 



—99— 

The smallest star that twinkles bright, 
Deep looks into my soul to-night; — 
Then laughs because it has the right 
To so behold my lover's. 

Chide not the star, that it doth know 
The path wherein our love doth go; 
If flowers sweeter there do grow — 
Because they know our loving 

Quench not the well to desert thirst, 
If flowers tell its secrets first; — 
The Archer in his skill is versed; 
He's old as stars in glory. 

The flowers, do not please expose 
To winds the scorching desert knows; 
If love will show its scars to those 
True comforters of lovers. 

Unfolding, these do love embalm; 
Are savor, and its hours becalm; — 
The star if twinkling a psalm 

The distanced lovers know it. 

No other love can ever hold, 

Would die — if these were never told — 

A molten metal love of gold. 

What then if they betray me ? 

Ah well! " A day is as a thousand years, a thousand 
years as a day," and the century is fast gliding away; 
and to those to whom it hath whispered its dying se- 
crets, they are rich ! Rich with hope and love. The 
evening voice of a dying century speaking low, and 



—100— 

deep falls its import. Hold, O soul, and listen, and 
listen ! Fie, fie to the glamour, and bauble, and tumult 
c f the world; know it not! It may be a Rosicrucian 
secret; or, an eidouranian vision, but somehow there is 
so much true happiness to enjoy that pure love sweet- 
ens, — who could chide. No, stay love till flesh grows 
white, and the rosy bloom of life blood is no more 
needed — then "White Lotus" unchanging live for- 
ever ! 

Unveiled simplicity may warm the chrysalis, and 
from the holocausts of the heart roses bloom, where 
thistles fell. 

If my reader is a young lady, she may not do as I 
have done. I would not advise she should. But I 
beg her not to believe my friend, my lover, to be an 
exception. There are hundreds of young men as good 
and worthy; make yourself worthy and such will find 
you. Seek not to put yourself in a position they 
should occupy. Leave to them their paths of labor, 
that they may seek you with a home, the birthplace of 
happiness and cradle for humanity. I make this appeal 
to your heart. Why ? Because happiness is sweet, 
because the Infinite One offers you its wealth; because 
one day I wish you to invite me to your home, and 
there tell me, that when you read this you went to 
your room and dedicated your plans for the future, 
upon that which hath brought heaven to you and yours. 
That as the ore trembles before the magnet, but is 
held, you- kept these higher principles, which brought 
to you quickly a cabinet of pleasures. A golden Age! 

But when my reader is a young man, " the noblest 
work of Divine Wisdom," then what shall I say to him 
of you, dear lady. He will know you have read this 
book; perhaps you have marked a thought here and 
there, which he will re-read to know how it impressed 



— 101 — 

you; and he is deeper in love than before he read the 
pages from which your eyes have just turned. 

I can say little to him; he is one of the many of a 
noble class. How could he be else ? 

We can not teach him. O, altruistic man ! Master 
and friend, through the decades and over the summits 
of centuries, thy praise is sung, thy spirit worshipped. 

Now I must leave you, dear lady, and you are better 
because you have loved, better because you have been 
loved. 

Better because he loves you ! 

Better because he loves you ! 

Are there chords, ? 

Are there harmonies — ? 

And now a few more months have passed us by, the 
last envelope has grown thin by the action of a kind of 
life which it must have unconsciously adopted while it 
seemed to be listening to, and watching over, that 
throb, and throb, and throb, which when absent, human 
life is invisible. 

One day in New York City, as I was on my way to 
the Post Office, to inquire for mail, I realized someway, 
strangely — not suddenly, but with natural quiet feeling 
of assurance that " I shall find a letter from him, " and 
my next realization was " I have it !" 

I walked away toward the Brooklyn Bridge, my hand 
hanging by my side, clasping tighter and tighter the 
thin letter until my arm seemed paralyzed, almost, and 
dark and various colored dots seemed to flit before my 
eyes; still walking on, I philosophized: — " Am I in such 
tension with life's action that the correspondences are 
visible to myself. Do I see the action of my own heart 
as if in vivisection ? I see ! I see — and yet I seem 
near blind — I seem to see spots upon the sun, and yet 



—102— 

I am not looking toward the sun; and with each throb 
of my heart various colored spots spring forth before 
me. I see the sun's and my heart's action like a wheel 
within a wheel, giving corresponding action. 

O, heaven, am I a part of this great Universe ? must 
I be; or, "the Universe fail ?" 

Still the correspondences play on. "I have not faint- 
ed, I am not ill. O, I am grasping that letter as if it 
were the motive power of the Universe I would still." 

By degrees I loosed the grasp of my hand upon that 
letter and in the same degree I could again see; the 
spots on the sun and my heart and its corresponding 
spots in the same degree disappeared. 

I was some distance upon the Brooklyn Bridge, the 
question " What are you making of life?" seemed to 
be asked me: or I inquired this of myself. 

A boy, on a donkey, rode by; I said to each " what 
are you making of life ?" A little hunchback miss,driving 
a span of goats, stopped for a moment near me. I 
said: "what are you making of life? An old man 
with feet turned in, toiled on his way, lifting one over 
the other, and the other over the one. I saw in each 
step the reversed arc of the pendulum with its meas- 
urements of motion and 'force of gravitation. All 
seemed describing the same arc, or wave, or roll of 
time: " Passing On !" Here was my answer: "Passing 
On!" 

Unconsciously, almost, I raised my letter, picked lit- 
tle bits from the end of its envelope, drew it from its 
case and read : 



To Miss- 



" I could not, nor do I now understand your long 
silence. 



—103— 

I have often been anxious to know what you are mak- 
ing of life " 

It contained little more, nor did I care to find more 
than this, then. " Better one glance more and one let- 
ter less; or, better one glance than a hundred letters." 
True, true there is a physiology, as well as a psychol- 
ogy, of love ! And all life is passing on. I stood 
there, again the wheel within the wheel rolled round. 
Centripetal and centrifugal forces in harmony weaving. 
The one having no limitation to its outward vibration, 
the other no negation to its power to weave finer and 
more compact the central portion of the web; the one 
weaving into concreteness, the other, abstractness. One 
instant I seemed on the outer wave in the humiliatory 
depths of the concrete. There I — I must have all there 
as I would it should be. Illusion, negation, limitation 
bound me, blinded me, I was helpless. I sought the 
centripetal wave. 

One dizzy moment of flight, I felt myself the very 
essence of happiness. A speck, an abstract atom of 
calmness and love. Play on, O shafts of time. Play on: 
Call them what you will, lifetimes, cycles, manvantaras 
or what you will. 

A grocery wagon was driven by, behind which was 
haltered a large beautiful horse, that at some little fright 
jerked backward and sideward, snapping his halter-strap 
from the wagon, and over the railing he fell with a thud 
to the sidewalk below. 

The eye that a moment before in frenzy rolled was in 
possession of another power; ghastly then was its ap- 
pearance. Rapidly as the horse had fallen, was the 
ever-push and passing on! No pause! 

I wrote him a short letter, not detailing as to my 
silence, I could not; then immediately departed from 
New York, leaving direction that if answer came to my 
last letter — I wished not to be informed, nor the letter 



—104— 

opened; but placed with all the others. When I shall 
have found some wild garden of Eden, near a beautiful 
placid lake, I shall order all these letters, in the original 
hand-writing, carefully enclosed in a casket just large 
enough to hold them; — and I shall bury them Earth to 
Earth, Dust to Dust, very close to the edge of the lake; 
and pray that from the first waters that shall pass over 
and through these letters, into the lake, shall spring up a 
White Lotus which shall bloom upon each day of the 
year that brought me a letter from him, and that from 
the first earth and dust of these letters shall grow in 
like manner Lilies of the valley and White Forget-me. 
nots; — and if music shall be played near by on these 
days, that upon the surface of the dust and upon the sur- 
face of the water beautiful bars of original music shall 
be formed, so difficult that none but the Gods shall be 
able to interpret and play them. And so the old Gods 
and new Gods shall thus find and furnish music to the 
highest civilization that eons shall behold. And that 
all lovers who shall come there to listen shall partake 
of Love Everlasting. And that paths from the North 
and from the South, East and West, shall be smooth 
trodden by the many coming and returning; for each 
who shall listen to the music, bathe their hands — ser- 
vitors of the soul — in the lake amid the Lotus flowers^ 
and carry away a spray of Lilies and Forget-me-nots 
shall by their power to do this, prove that they may 
soon reach the lesbian shores, where loving is — "without 
the pain of losing." 



The wave has gone forth, it will return. I shall 

know him when we meet. I shall at once speak his 

name and he pronounce mine. The cognizance shall be 
mutual. 



—105— 

Only once we shook hands. My hand was gloved. 
Was it ominous? O, Omnipotent, Omniscient, Omni- 
present OM. Teach me all that I may know of thy best 
nature and best gift to man. 

Better that I did not meet him as requested; such 
memory could not be otherwise than painful. The 
parting — so long! And the ghosts of Suissun! Does 
he ever pass those Moorlands? — In the witchited 
hours of night's shade — Ah! 

Love! O beautiful shrine I bow before thee and 
ask — what next? 

No coarse law of government can say from these 
letters that he loves me. 

Only by the psychological law of the Gods shall we be 
first to bathe our hands in the lake amid the Lotus 
flowers; and we shall be first to pluck the Lilies and the 
Forget-me-nots. And in our footsteps to and from the 
Lake, shall the softest mosses grow. 

By my faith, O, Omnipotent OM, I am saved the 
wasting of energy by regrets. 

By my faith, O, Omniscient OM, I am taught to lock 
this love in the casket of sacredness. 

By my faith, O, Omnipresent OM, I am taught to 
preserve the casket in the globe of holiness. 

And because I know, O, OM, Thou, All in All! Fa- 
ther and mother of life. My ear has not been deaf to 
the voice or voices from the land ye dwell in. Sleeping 
or waking I have heard the call from the land ye dwell 
in; and sometime, I believe, there shall unroll before me 
a beautiful white scroll, bearing this imprint: — 

"You shall have the photograph, as requested." 

Are there chords, harmonies, memories ? 

Harmonies, memories, chords — 

Memories, chords, harmonies. 

The small clock's slim hands are at xii. The rain 
begins to fall. The dark is dense without. The wind 



—106— 

must have found some new creeping place, where it 
lost the coarser shell of the echoes caught up from 
dreamland far away, far away. And now I know that 
he is dreaming. The clock ticks loud. The drops of 
rain are large and slow and heavy. A mirror is before 
me, and I know that he is dreaming. 

Are there chords ? 

Are there harmonies ? 

Are there memories ? 



It is nearly a year since the above was written. 

A letter from a friend in the South lies upon my 
table which was written a few months ago. In this 
the writer, not dreaming of my interestedness, tells me 
that a friend of his in California has recently written, 
that if all goes well with him, he shall visit the South 
near Christmas time, in celebration of an anniversary 
of his becoming acquainted with that most divine power 
— Love, and be accompanied by one whom he could 
wish should be his more than one lifetime. 



—107— 



AN EVENING'S IDYL. 



Pale beauty of the Idyl, 

Faint glimpse of dying eve, 
Enfolding in thy riddle 

Of poets weave — 
The key-tides of the hearts sweet, 

The tender, sacred flower 
Unfolds, Love, thee to greet 

In evening's hour. 



Two rainbows radiant, 

Ebbed where the shadows go. 
The inner sky low bent 

In jeweled glow. 
The diadems of light, 

The ottar of the flowers, 
The Idyl of the night— 

Ah! Love, is ours. 



—108— 

A fiery jealousy — 

The cold dead North awakes 
To flush the southron sea, 

And light the lakes. 
The moon man sinks in mist, 

Dimly the west sky lowers; 
The Idyl, evening kissed — 

Ah ! Love is ours. 



Pale beauty of the Idyl, 

Enflamed to fire of night, 
Unfolding all the riddle 

Of love's delight. 
Still, now, the pulseless flowing, 

Softly, — night tide at rest — 
The Idyl passeth, knowing 

Our love confessed. 



—109— 



" I'll be as patient as a gentle stream, 
And make a pastime of each weary step, 
Till the last step has brought me to my love 
And there I'll rest ; as, after much turmoil, 
A blessed soul doth in Elysium." 



TIS-SA-ACK. 

A Tale of Yo Semite Valley, California. 



By STELLA STANDISH 



The scenes are laid in the Yo Semite Valley, Mariposa, 
Tuolumne, Stanislaus and Merced counties, and in the 
groves and vineyards of Fresno county, also including 
sketches of various parts of the State, and ending at 
Sutro Heights, San Francisco. By all critics who have 
read the story it is pronounced the best romantic pro- 
duction upon California, and a work of great interest 
to all parts of the State. It is delicated to the visitors 
of the Yo Semite Valley. 



Tis-sa^ack— a tale of Yo Semite Valley, California, by Stella 
Standish — is wonderful, weird and beautiful ; sublime in language 
and plot. The interest never flags. It is one of the spokes in the 
wheel of progress that will do a great good to the world. I pro- 
nounce it the greatest production ci the day. 

MRS. ROWENA G. STEELE, 

Late of Merced Argus, 



Tis«sa«ack, by Stella Standish— a grand and beautiful poem. 
A fine work of literary art, from the boundless and fertile imagina- 
tion of this young and talented authoress. In graceful and easy 
manner she glides from the realm of fancy and lofty imaginings to 
the useful and practical realities of life. The line of demarkaticn is 
so artistically and beautifully blended, like the colors of the rainbow, 
merging in each other that the period of transition is scarcely vis. 
ible. It is the effusion of a truly poetic soul, and will find a place 
soon in the world's literature, for its style is impressive and weird, 
yet simple ; its tone beautiful and uplifting, its contents bracing and 
inspiring. JAS. BATTERSBY, 

In Merced Express, 



Tis-sa-ack, a Yo Semite tale by Stella Standish — a weirdly witch- 
ing story, is of special interest to San Joaquin Valley and all Califor- 
nia ; yet, the unqualified merits of the work are such as commend it as 
an important addition to American literature of the purest, sweet- 
est and highest order. A boldly brilliant master-piece of composition 
by a California girl. Hon. G. M. RADCLIFFE; 

In Merced Sun. 



Tis-sa-ack, by Stella Standish, is a beautiful California story, 
and we shall all like to read it when published. Stockton Mail. 



Tis-sa-ack is one of the most fascinating and natural of western 
romantic poems. Happy is the person who can study and learn to 
love nature through the medium of such a wholesome and refreshing 
story. Miss Standish has attained an enviable position as a writer, 
and no person has earned a better right to be ranked among our 
foremost western authors. J. C. LEVENGOOD, 

Teacher of Eng. Lit. Modesto High School. 



_, Tis-sa-ack, a tale of Yo Semite, by Stella Standish, whom I be- 
lieve to be gifted with genius of the highest order. It is written i n 
the noble trochaic verse, and has the charm, beauty and sentiment 
of Hiawatha and the Finnish Calevala, and will soon find a place 
among the greatest poems of the century. A well merited position 
with our truest and choicest geniuses awaits the young and gifted 
author. The story is a glorious picture drawn by a master hand. 

HENRY G. GILLINGHAM, 

Modesto. 



Tis-sa-ack is too good to be published without being largely 
illustrated. J. DEWING, 

Dewing Co. Market St. Book Store, San Francisco. 



Tis-sa-ack contains an opera. J. M . HUTCHINGS, 

Author of "In the Heart of the Sierras." 



Are there Chords 
In the Harps of Humanity ? 



BY STELLA STANDISH. 



There is much of real pathos contained in these 
letters. They have the appearance of being a true 
history of some human heart that has loved and lost. 

The exquisite pathos that pervades them through- 
out is remarkable, and gives promise of the author's 
future success in the field of fiction. This series of 
letters, however, has too much of the transcendental to 
be appreciated by the common run of readers. To the 
chosen few whose psychic sense has been cultivated to 
the proper degree of refinement to appreciate the ex- 
quisite spirituelle of the letters, the book would be 
interesting. But it is above the comprehension of the 
common herd who buy and read books for amusement. 

E. T. R., Literary Critic for 
Donahue, Henneberrv & Co., Publising House, 

Chicago. 



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